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Posted 1/8/2009 12:51 AM (GMT 0)
If you work, does your AP affect your job? does it make life more stressful?

my job is a high stress one, but i actually find it takes my mind off my own problems and is a distraction.

just curious-

Maz XX

Posted 1/8/2009 12:56 AM (GMT 0)
I find it very difficult to work at job where I'm stuck at a desk. Actually, I haven't done that in years because of A/P. My current job I can work from home and come and go from the office as I please. That makes it easier to run if need be. It's my "out". We're not supposed to leave ourselves a way out with A/P but I always have. If it wasn't for A/P I would have a successful career today. Or rather, if it wasn't for my responses to A/P, I would have a successful career.
Posted 1/8/2009 2:48 AM (GMT 0)

Hi, nice thread Maz,

I find my work (mostly) keeps my mind off A/P and puts me in contact with my local community. Of course I have my bad days where I end up crying in the back room or bashing my head against the computer. I think A/P does make me more susceptible to having "melt-downs" and it certainly drains my confidence..but I would much prefer to work than to be unemployed and feeling worthless (which I wouldn't be - but guilt and me are close friends!)

Aries, what do you feel holds you back from being "successful"? I find just having a job is a pretty amazing achievement for A/P people. Please give yourself credit for pushing forward despite the fear! smilewinkgrin You are tough, so all kudos to you.

Meg

Posted 1/8/2009 3:05 AM (GMT 0)
I feel I keep myself from being successful. I allow my A/P to get in the way. I should be further than where I'm at. Thank you, though.

Posted 1/8/2009 5:22 AM (GMT 0)

Well I am starting my second carreer with a lot less stress, and I do not have to manage anyone else so I am hoping I will see a huge difference between the 2 positions. Also short hours......... but a litle extra income which we need right now.

When I worked full time.........yes my A & P affected my performance.  I am proud of the job I did do for 26 years through the A & P and all.

Peace

Kitt

Posted 1/8/2009 5:25 AM (GMT 0)
Think for me it's Who I am working with that makes or breaks my day..And I find that working alone gives me way too much time to over think!

Maree

Posted 1/8/2009 8:34 AM (GMT 0)
My AP does not affect me too much here at the farm unless I'm exhausted but I still get around anyway to get the chores done and take care of any of my grandmother's needs :) I also have to get out and talk to many people that we rent to and do what construction work I still can on the properties. I just use my cane as an "extended arm" while working, lol. It is so banged up and made out of hedge wood so at least it is sturdy :) Anyway, I have to say my AP probably helps me keep going at times just to expend the negative energy and the OCD about getting things done sure helps too!
Posted 1/8/2009 8:59 AM (GMT 0)
Hi Maz

My Anxiety/Depression does affect my job. My job involves working with the public and i find i do get anxious a lot when i am at work but i am very good at my job and i get lots of good feedback which is a huge positive. I find that i can hide my anxiety/depression most of the time whilst i am at work but i dwell on things when i get home and can make my anxiety worse. I also dont get on with the managers at my work due to them not understanding my anxiety/depression. When i get back from my trip i will be looking for a new job and think it will be in the area of working with youth offenders as a councilor.

Ben
Posted 1/8/2009 10:09 AM (GMT 0)
Yes, it does affect my job at times. I find my anxiety is at its worst in the morning while trying to get ready for work. The "what if" thinking is very strong then. But, by the time I am at work, I find it gets my mind off of things and I can focus on other people/situations instead of myself. That is when I feel my best. I feel nervous, but that's it. No full-blown panic. And, if one snaks up on me, I can usually get it under control pretty quick. Blessings, Julie
Posted 1/8/2009 3:03 PM (GMT 0)
I think my job helps me to take my mind off myself and problems and focus on something else. If the anxiety should creep in during the day, I always keep emergency meds here too. Good question!
Posted 1/8/2009 9:49 PM (GMT 0)
I'm the oddball out it seems.  My job is making my AP worse.  Well, not the job but my supervisor.  My job does keep my mind occupied and away from focusing on my physical symptoms of my anxiety.  My boss is what is making my anxiety so much worse and I can't get a new boss so I am really trying to focus on staying in a positive frame of mind around my boss but I tell you there are times that it is just too much and I get so angry I want to shout (like this afternoon).  I am actually to the point where I try to avoid any contact with her at all and definitely avoid eye contact and try to make myself as "small" as possible when she is around.  I am tired of being the brunt of her bad emotional state of mind.  Other people are beginning to notice how she is treating me as well and are commenting to me on it.  Nothing more I can do.  So, I bite my tongue and keep my mouth shut.  I'm trying my hardest to do the best job possible and follow all the rules 100%.  I am not perfect.  Okay, well that turned into a small vent.  Sorry.  I've had my say and now I'm done and now that I've talked it out hopefully I can refocus my anger away and find a more peaceful positive frame of mind.

Posted 1/8/2009 10:55 PM (GMT 0)
Oh yes, my anxiety impacts my work.  I think it's contributes to me no longer enjoying a job I used to love.  And then I missed over three weeks of work in the spring of 08 when I was hospitalized and recovering from debilitating anxiety (was in hosp for a week and only remember about one hour of the time).   WHen I did return to work, I still had bad anxiety though not as disabling.  So that impacted my work effectiveness.  Now I usually feel bad in the mornings (depression) and sometimes call in late.  I am the boss though and had almost 34 years of good service under my belt when I fell ill.  My goal for 09 is not to be late to work, ever, due to depression and dragging butt. 


Posted 1/9/2009 1:08 AM (GMT 0)
Diane, do you think you'd be able to confront your boss and tell her how you feel? Or would you just burst into tears? I tend to cry when I'm angry and then I look like an idiot. If you could bring to her attention the things she says and mention that others are noticing it, that may help. Of course, do it professionally and calmly. Or, does this boss have a boss that you could talk to? I hate hearing about people being bullied at work. I sure hope it gets better for you.
Posted 1/9/2009 1:45 AM (GMT 0)

Aries,

I tend to get angry and stew over stuff and then walk off and cry somewhere.  I have tried talking to my boss in a professional and calm manner about how she speaks to me (the tone of her voice) and for a couple days things get better and she is sickeningly sweet and then it goes bad again.  I am an honest and hard worker and do my best at any task I do and up until this boss I have NEVER had a boss treat me in the manner this one does or talk down to me the way she does.  I feel a lot of her tone is her fear and emotional issues in her own life and she has no control over that so she has to try to sound more controlling and authoritative at work and it comes out at me.  I am not in her shoes as far as her personal life and the things she is dealing with but am sympathetic to what she is experiencing and have tried with all I have to be attentive when she is sad and such but a person can only take so much and I am at my breaking point here and there is no more I can say to her.  I've tried the "kill her with kindness" and "staying under the radar as much as possible" and professionalism to the point where people were wondering what was wrong with me because I put myself away and spoke only when spoken to and answered in a very professional manner.  I lost ME along the way and although I am a professional, I have to be ME and if that is not good enough for my boss than so be it.  I am not going to let her bad mood take away who I am.  I do get angry with her and the things she says but am trying my best to practice letting go and moving on and past and forgetting what happened.  It will just eat me up inside if I hold onto it all like I used to.  Well, again this turned into a mini therapy session for myself by myself.

Thanks for listening Aries.  What do you do for a living where you have a job where you can work from home or office?  I'd love having the "out" as you call it.  I want to conquer this anxiety but having an "out" is not such a bad thing is it?

Posted 1/9/2009 2:21 AM (GMT 0)
Oh I did much better with my health anxiety while I was working. Too much other stress and things to worry about to worry about that too. LOL I can really only remember a few times when I was a problem for me.

Unfortunately other health problems have made working very difficult for me, I became quite ill. So I handle the rest of my health better without working. Unfortunately that really opened the door for my anxiety to come back. Keeping busy is key for sure!
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