Unwell

Thankyou ALL so much. it hurts to breathe. it hurts to swallow. it hurts to move my head/neck as my glands are like melons. my face is a map of sinus related pain. i cant quit coughing.

I geel so guilty for getting on here and having a whinge when everyone here is battling their own problems- im just in that much discomfort and pain and it gets me down when im sick day after day.

 i DID have a great weekend despite being sick, and for that i am grateful- a 48hr beach party and dinner at a fancy restaurant, and my agoraphobia didnt stop me (i had to drive 4hrs north- out of comfort zone) but once there, i enjoyed myself immensely. ruptured my eardrum about 2am sunday morning from SNEEZING too hard- thats how sensitive all the pressure in my head is. it just tore a huge hole. the pain is excruciating.

I will stop sooking now because when i think back to my nursing days and the cancer patients i cared for, my problems seem insignificant.

it just hurts me. i feel like life passed me by a long time ago.

Maz XX

and to top it off, i have a gastro bug- a very upset tummy indeed.

Lovely Maz,

Bummer my friend. The heat won't be helping this. Do you have a humidifier? I know it sounds crazy to have steam happening right now but it always helps me with nasal congestion. Failing that you could stand on Oxford street and get humidity up your nose for free Ok I'm being silly..sorry about that.

Please feel free to vent..gastro and sinus..

I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. Keep up with fluids..I find ginger ale soothing for nausea and sore throat. Please feel free to email me if you want to chat..just stay out of the water..the sharks are going nuts or what??

Hugs,

Meg

we are having a bit of a heatwave here in sunny australia- and im already battling the sinus/bronchitis/pharyngitis combo with a dash of gastro- and now the heat is torturing my fibro. i cant even get comfy in bed . i ache and ache. when will it end? it wont.

when i had my 28th bday last year, in the lead up i was really anxious and in a foul mood- i couldnt work out why. then the night before my bday i realised that both my mental illness and my chronic physical illnesses were diagnosed at 14- meaning i had spent HALF of my life being chronically ill and emotionally fragile. it makes sense now.

Im over it! im tired of it! so much of my teen years were lost in the drama of doctors, Pdocs, hospitals, surgeries, day procedures- fighting every day to just get out of bed. my body betrayed me.

I believe in God and i trust Him. I have to believe there is a bigger picture, that there is some purpose for all of this.

Thanks for the ongoing support, i need it right now. Its past my bedtime- i go try and snooze now

Maz XX

gilly-love said...
I wish I could make it all go away for you!! Do you have someone to care for you??  Please take it easy...Maybe you should consider cutting you holiday short and rest for a while....Please Anytime you want to talk you can email me.   Please keep in touch and hang in there babe!  Gillxx  Ps Where in australia are u?

Hey Gill, im a high school teacher so im on holidays from work- not an actual fun holiday! ive made resting up a professional art form, ive done very little recently as i am just too unwell. im chronically, physically ill most of the time, but sometimes particular symptoms flare up and leave me in a huge amount of discomfort. thanks for your kind thoughts, im a Sydney Girl-

Maz XX

Maz,

I'm not going to need that carpet I'm going to zip up to Sydney!! I'm going to make sure you have a holiday if I have to gaffa tape you to a roller-coaster! Nah, just kidding Maz, I'm sorry that you are suffering...I'm going to do a little rain dance and hopefully the cooler weather will ease up some of your sx my dear.

Hugs a plenty,

Meg