Aries8 said...
You may be experiencing anxiety from thinking about the weaning off the med. Confused? Are you thinking, "what am i going to feel like after the med is out of my system"? Or, "are these feelings going to get worse"? These kinds of questions will cause anxiety. Stay in the moment.
Also, please don't worry about your body. The important thing is being healthy. I was always a size 6. Now I'm a size 8. I've gotten older, things have filled out. I'm almost 5' 7". I am perfectly happy with my body even though I don't look like a model. Remember that you're healthy and that's all that matters!
You bring up some good points. I need to stay in the moment. The weight thing is hard for me. Before I got UC in 2004 and then the PTSD/Anxiety I was working in a gym, going to school for physical therapy and working towards starting my own fitness business/seminars/speaking engagements. All of this has been put on hold. I can't very well be an overweight trainer. I've gone from 135 to 152 since being on Lexapro and I'm 5'4 with a muscular build so it is REALLY noticable on me. I posted in the UC fourm that someone asked me if I was pregnant last week
Most of my fat is in the belly and butt...Gaining a ton of weight with my 3 kids left some saggy skin around my belly that pouches out when I gain). But you are correct about
being healthy. I have to work through these body image issues so I dont beat myself up so much over this.