I have a hard time crying?

I have been in counseling for a long time battling anxiety, and I think I've finally reached the point where I am no longer scared of people or of anything. I feel like a new person. I LOVE my counselor; I admire her so much and can tell her anything. We literally talk about funnny stuff... just anything & everything. Shes like my mom.

In 2 years, Ive never cried in front of her.  I sometimes wonder to myself why I can't show emotion in front of people. I want to, but I just cant. I worry that maybe she thinks I'm lieing or heartless, or just not sincere because I have all these issues, but how come I dont cry or show emotion when I talk about them?

I dont know what to do...

That's good... I would fear losing a councilor/therapist ... if I was attached to them, and what else... I also have trouble crying, it's like my forehead is NUMBED... and I can't UNLEASH sadness.

ive been with my current pyschiatrist since 2003. I have NEVER cried infront of her. i wish i could, but she just doesnt get me in many ways. sometimes a good cry is exactly what we need- i will put on a movie that i know is guarenteed to get me crying and i will have a sob and a howl about all the sad stuff in my life, but i dont cry very often, and never infront of my pyschiatrist. She is kind and thoughtful but i dont feel able to make a total connection with her.

Maz XX

p.s i was in a pysch hospital a few years back changing meds from prozac to zoloft, and the pyschiatrist on call wouldnt give me valium or xanax or ANYTHING to aid my panic through the withdrawal/side effect process. he told me it was in my head and not to be a baby etc (i was 21). he was rude, arrogant and harsh. i CRIED my eyes out cos i was panicking so bad and this man right infront of me chose to ignore my suffering. he had a box of tissues on his desk and he would NOT pass them to me! i had to get up, get them myself and then i yelled at him. im not an agressive person, but this guy was a jerk. told me to stop the 'crocodile' tears and grow up. i threw the box of tissues at his head (very unlike me) and he finally gave in and prescribed me valium to take the edge off. he is the one and only pyschiatrist who has ever seen me cry. i cried cos i was MAD.

I went through this no crying bit for many years and last year when my emotions hit an all time high, the faucets opened up and I definitely made up for the lack of tears then. I don't feel that anything is wrong with you at all. . . You will come back to yourself soon enough, but don't force the emotion away from you because an old Native American doc I had when I was younger told me that tears were healing and there was no shame in this.

Take care and I sure hope you get to feeling better.

Your Bro Sam :)

I recently went back to counseling. I think it was Friday? Geez, can't even remember a few days ago. Anyway, that's pretty much all I did was cry in the session. When I was younger I saw crying as a weakness so I would do it when I was alone in my room.

Sedatives/tranquilizers will cover emotions and that may make it difficult for you to cry. Are you taking any of those?

The therapists you are seeing will definitely help you with this crying issue. Ask her about it!