I posted a while ago about
how i had surgery and got my nose broken a bunch of times and how it was horrible...
it's been eight weeks now and i was feeling a lot better last week but today i was suddenly smacked with a headache and i paniced BIG time! I got a stabbing pain behind my eye which reminded me of what it felt like way earlier on in the recovery process and thought i was going to lose my mind.
When i panic it feels like my head is tingling and it keeps getting worse and worse until im positive that its going to explode or something...i havent had a panic attack for probably 2 weeks now and now im scared that im right back where i started :(
maybe it's normal? when im sick im used to getting drugs for it and it slowly getting better and better, but with this it seems like it gets a little better...a little worse...a little better...then bad again...and as time goes on the "better" times seem to last longer....
should i be freaked out???? in the last two weeks ive only been taking 1/2 of the clonazepam before bed and it's been going great...maybe they're starting to lose their effectiveness? ugh i just don't want to be on them forever i was hoping to try and get off of them soon :(..
im scared
also im in university and i have all my exams coming up this week which is stressing me out and my exboyfriend (who was really an awful boyfriend) is coming into town this week (he moved 40 hours away) and im nervous because i don't want to see him and he's been trying really hard to get in touch with me.