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Posted 4/24/2009 7:37 AM (GMT 0)
my derealization & depersonalization started on march 30th 2009 and has been a constant worsning state this is the fault people that ran columbia hospital psyc ward and from them ***kin with my mind, all of march i was goin thro tapering of xanax & withdrawl nd under alot of stress then had a bad anxiety/panic attack was baker acted to columbia hospital then for 5 days whil in a psyc ward they put me thro cold turky detox i was a*****ed by orderlys/nurses with injections of geodone had 7 seizures nd was locked in a blackend room, on the 4th night i forced myself into meditat to escape the withdrawl anxiety panic attacks nd then had a verry bad out of body experiance ( i saw myself as if i was someone els looking at me ) whil that at sompoint a nurse took my bp nd it was 227 over 196 i was then injected with a ativan/geodone coctail nd was released on the 5th day i felt like it took 10 years to just get to the exit, then imidiatly went to the ER had this derealization depersonalization ever since!
all anxiety meds are having a srtrong oposit effects nd i feel like im dieing.


everyday is becoming harder nd harder idk what to do im scared nd feel as tho all the dr’s are just ignoring me nf just saying go see the other guy. ive seen my shrink 3 times this month he cares as much as to ignore whatever i say and call me a benzo addict but xanax as well as ativan and valium don’t help anymore.


i can’t sleep every time i do somthin weird starts happening my arms nd legs become numb nd i feel as thos im gaspin for air my sight becomes disorented like croosed eyed nd stuff becomes even more fake like watching tv but same time i feel myself idk how to describ but almost dieing.


i just wanto go bk to b4 that week.



everything i do or can think of is no nd i just keep gettin told to go bk to the shrink he cares enough to ignore me nd call me a benzo addict infront of my mom.



columbia nurse notes said march 30th 2009 630am edwin cr, blood pressure 227 over 196.
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I gave your post a topic. :)

Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 4/24/2009 5:04:39 AM (GMT-6)

Posted 4/24/2009 11:14 AM (GMT 0)

lostindaerkness22

Welcome to HealingWell and the A & P Forum.  We are a peer support forum. 

Support groups are a place for people to give and receive both emotional and practical support as well as to exchange information. People with health conditions, as well as their friends and families find support groups to be a valuable resource and get confirmation that their feelings are "normal", educate others, or just let off steam. I hope that we are able to meet your needs.

I am alarmed to hear that your high blood pressure was not addressed appropriately from what you have posted. Do you have a regular family physician and  if you do not mind my asking how did you end up at this particular hospital?

Geodon  intramuscular is indicated for the treatment of acute agitation. Ativan is an anti-anxiety medication to relieve anxiety.  Did they recheck you BP after the medications were on board ?

I am so sorry you had to go through this experience and I hope that you are able to find medical care that will help you.

Again a warm welcome to HealingWell.

Kitt


Posted 4/27/2009 7:54 PM (GMT 0)
Hey! I had a bad experience going off of Xanax, also. I ended up in a psych ward for two weeks. Going off Xanax cold turkey can cause all kinds of awful symptoms, including seizures.

My suggestion to you is to sit down with your mother and have a long talk. Discuss your fears, symptoms, etc. Tell her how badly you are feeling. I think a new doctor may be in order. Someone with a fresh perspective. If it turns out you do rely on Xanax too much, seek help for that.

Give it all time to get resolved. Your mind/body went through a lot. I hope that you'll talk to your mom about all of this!
Posted 4/28/2009 4:23 AM (GMT 0)
i had dp/dr for just over two yeas, i recovered, no longer have had it the past 2 yrs, took me ages to recover, complicated to get out out, mine was in a bad state 24hrs, i dont know if yours is mild or now and then, but try doing some grounding exercises it will bring you back to your body and make u feel whole, keep practising to recognise pysical sensations, what u touch, etc take notice, and dont fear your symptoms, yes they are scary but just go with it, the less u react and are afraid the less power u are giving it. i never took meds so im not sure what its like or if it interferes with anything but this is partly how i dealed with it in a natural way so, if they do help u thats great but remeber to compromise it with some natural healing combinations too like what ive mentioned, because i believe meds alone is not enough. Good luck, i hope u will feel better soon. sitting out in the sun, and smelling some incense is a good way to feel whole and grounded too, but it is so important to not fear what u expericance because it feeds it. i know how hard it was for me whan i went through it, nobody had heard of what that was, so i was too embarressed to talk about it, its not as common as the usual anxiety, phobias etc. Just keep up hope and try to stay positive.
Posted 5/8/2009 2:34 AM (GMT 0)
My life was great, so i thought....First I experienced sleep paralysis. It scared the crap out of me and for 3 days I wouldn't dare go to sleep. I was 15 at the time. Those 3 days I'll never forget...the empty lonely feeling I had, I was in my own world. I felt like I was dreaming...I could hear everyone around me but it felt like I wasn't there...all I could think of was "oh my god what is wrong with me? am I losing my mind? why do i feel like this? am I going to die? what is this heavy feeling? why can't I breathe" My world came crashing down...the anxiety/panic attacks kicked in, the phobias and worst of all the derealization. Looking back 20 years later and in perfect health YAY! (i just got a physical done today!) all I have to say is think positive no matter how hard that may be... reading has really really helped me, listening to music...watching a movie. Find a hobby to keep your mind off your negative thinking. Mine's been Scrabble on Facebook lol. Accept it and don't fight it! It only makes it worse...adding fuel to the fire. I'm living proof! Learn to relax very important!!! above all, tell yourself that you will be OKAY maybe talking outloud if you have to.. well depending where you are! just so you don't have to listen to your innervoice which seems to be so negative all the time! distracting your mind with something positive.... I've had 3 beautiful kids and carried on a 'normal' life. Will I ever feel 'normal' again? I don't know. I pray someday I will. For now though I will keep looking for answers! Thanks all for reading this.

Kristi

Post Edited (Tryin2BME) : 5/9/2009 3:22:49 PM (GMT-6)
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