Dannii,
First of all do not worry about going back to step one, you may not have done that but it feels like it. With the anxiety disorders we may be all over the board but when a bad time hits we just start to put one foot in front of the other and start marching away from the panic and anxiety. You can do this as I have great faith in your my friend. WE are here to help you.
OCD treatment can help you bring symptoms under control so that they don't rule your daily life. A type of therapy called cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) has been shown to be the most effective form of therapy for OCD in both children and adults. Cognitive behavioral therapy involves retraining your thought patterns and routines so that compulsive behaviors are no longer necessary. I am wonder if you have been through this therapy?
One CBT approach in particular is called exposure and response prevention. This therapy involves gradually exposing you to a feared object or obsession, such as dirt, and teaching you healthy ways to cope with your anxiety. Learning the techniques and new thought patterns takes effort and practice. But you may enjoy a better quality of life once you learn to manage your obsessions and compulsions.
Therapy may take place in individual, family or group or online sessions.
Please take a look at the free online CBT, the Mood Gym, http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome.
This program is all online and you can work through it at your own pace right here online. I have been working on this program myself.
Also know you are never alone here as we are one big family and we are all here to help each other.
Gentle Hugs to you
Kitt