GRRRR

So a little back story me and my ex broke up in feb. and we talked a little after that but after a while we just stopped talking. I never really got over here so yesterday I was looking for something and I stumbled across some old letters she wrote me. Well I thought no better time than now to call and get closure. So I called and as it was ringing my heart was seriously beating which should have been a warning but she answered and it had been over two months since we talked. Well she was telling me she was going to school working and the then she dropped the bombshell she had a new boyfriend. My heart sank, so I did some prying to find out he is 24 with a 1 year old and lives near here which was very ironic because she gave me stuff about how we were at different parts of our lives and the fact that she goes to school 8 hours away. So i really didnt know what to think other than did she not learn. This girl was my first love and pretty much my first everything. She is only 18 and im only 20 so i know i will get over it. The crappy thing is that my anxiety kicked in last night after that phone conversation. I couldnt sleep since I was getting the shakes which are quite annoying. I was doing so well lately no physical symptoms and I was coping better than ever with my mind set. I just hate that finding this out has put me back into that hole again that i just got out of. I need to find out how I can deal with stress without it going directly back to anxiety.

Aaww, I'm sorry you're going through this! Remember, you are so young. There will be many women in your life. The right one will come along and you'll know why all of this had to happen.