Hey Bethers,
As long as you have come this far, I would take your last pill and then let go of it.........just stay in the moment and don't fear that you are going to have an panic attack.
You will be ok. Many people give up meds for different reasons and deal with it just fine.
Vistaril is a great drug and often overlooked by physicians when prescribing for Anxiety. It also can help you if you have insomnia.
I think your on the right track and do count on us to support you.
Gentle Hugs
Kitt