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Posted 10/15/2009 12:54 PM (GMT 0)
Gem here, Tuesday I had the best day I have had in months, felt great, good day, savored every moment.  Wednesday night (same thing happened Monday night), total melt down.  Last night I could not even breathe deep, every part of my body hurt, angry, hating everything, Kicked the dryer, yelling, hostile, headhurt so bad.  Finely got to sleep, today I feel OK, a little washed out.  What is this bouncing around?  Where is it coming from?  Have you had this happen before?  Is it typical of GAD to be ok, ok, ok not ok?

Thanks,

Gem confused

Posted 10/15/2009 1:37 PM (GMT 0)

Good Morning Gem,

I am sorry to hear you were feeling good and then whammy, yes that happens to me way to often and it has taken a lot of practice to learn  how to pull out of the anxiety spiral as well as to accept that I am a person with anxiety. smhair

When looking at the topic of anxiety there are a couple of terms known as Specific and Non-Specific Anxiety.

In the majority of cases of clinical anxiety, the fearful feelings are fixated on a specific threat: an identifiable person, activity, event, or circumstance. This type of anxiety is therefore known as "specific anxiety." The phobias would fall into this type of anxiety.

On the other hand, non-specific anxiety -- fears that are not easily attributed to any particular source or trigger -- are often more disturbing  and more difficult to manage clinically. This type of anxiety is called "free-floating anxiety" when the anxious feelings occur spontaneously and without any apparent cause.

I believe that I have more non-specific anxiety as I will have days where I just burst into tears of anxiety and cannot identify why I am feeling so anxious.  One of the things that helps me to pull back from the anxiety is music. Listening to music which is soothing will  help to redirect your immediate thoughts away from any anxiety you feel. The calmer the music the more effective it will be towards soothing your emotions. Even if you are a hard rock or rap fan you will still appreciate and benefit from this type of music.

Take care and remember to keep on moving forward, one babystep at a time.

Hugs

Kitt

Posted 10/15/2009 2:05 PM (GMT 0)

Thanks for the info Kitt.  I am the "free-floating" variety.  Everything can be fine than Wham!  I recently had a med increase that I think was a little too much, I may just be adjusting to the new dose.  I was taking 15 mg a day and Dr. told me to go to 30mg.  I did for a couple of days and started having side effects that I had not had with this med, so I backed down to 15 mg and am going to go up a little more slowly.  I know meds are not the complete answer, but I do eat well, try to get enough sleep, exercise, hold down a job - though some days I do not even feel capable of that, I fake it.  Some days it is just so hard and some days so easy, no in-between.  Thanks for writing me back, I need to follow my own advice today and know that tomorrow will be better.

Love,

Gem

Posted 10/15/2009 2:14 PM (GMT 0)

Dear Gem,

You are talking to one of the world's best fakers.............for 23 years I never told a soul I worked with that I had anxiety and depression.  When I went to retire due to escalation in my Depression, Anxiety  and a major melt down no one would believe me when I admitted that I had Depression and needed to decrease the stress in my life.

Some just laughed and said " Oh yeah right, You have depression " 

I took my benzo med everyday before leaving for work.  I also went through therapy several times and I am back in therapy now as I felt I needed a boost. smhair

I know where you are coming from and what you are going through.

Gentle Hugs,

Kitt

Posted 10/15/2009 2:35 PM (GMT 0)
I have been in and out of therapy as well.  It does help and I try to remember what I have learned to get me through.  My husband tries very hard to be understanding but I think it kind of beats him down too sometimes.  I pay through my employer for short and long term disability (funny though, it has a clause that states if you are disabiled due to anxiety, depression, bipolar, you can only receive benefits for 2 years. sounds a little discriminatory to me) anyway, I have talked to my Dr. about this but because I am functioning at the level I am at, she will not disable me.  Sometimes I think that is the only way I am going to get well or "weller" is if I can set my own pace in life.  But we as all working families need my income, a real catch-22 situation.  So I keep going everyday.  Thanks for your post, you are always so kind to me and helpful.

 

Gem

Posted 10/15/2009 8:32 PM (GMT 0)
Hello,

I also suffer from free-floating anxiety and I know how scary it can be. I use all of my therapy tools like CBT, relaxation & breathing exercises, healthier lifestyle, cutting back on caffeine, nicotine, alcohol, etc. Plus taking a benzo as needed to help me with this. You already received some great advice and valuable info, so I won't elaborate on that, but just know that you are not alone my friend.

Take care and keep us posted on how your doing and the tools you are using to combat your A/P :)
Posted 10/15/2009 11:56 PM (GMT 0)
I also suffer from this i am great for a couple of days then wham i go into such an mood angry depressed crying you name it...with cbt i found it has helped alot as well as being able to talk about it all on here...i too use to hide it n did it so well ..i dont have the urge nor energy to hide it anymore....i am working thru it with support from here my friends and my stubborness lol....it can be changed n you very well can beat this...we are here so keep talking about it we do get it....lyn
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