So last year on thansgiving day, i had to leave work, and be rushed to the e.r... The night before just as i was about
to goto sleep it felt as though my heart did a back flip, i'd say thats a pretty good descript
ion... it hurt, but scared the daylights outa me more then anything... this had been happening in very small intervals over the past week all climatically erupting on thanksgiving day...
So thanksgiving day, i began gettin chest pains, my arm going numb, and a stabing pain about 2-in. to the center of the chest, on my left side. I tried to deal with it and ignore it, you know being the "man" i am, and the fact that i'm 20yr's old made more of a instillment in me that i was not having a heart attack. Eventually it got so bad i dropped to the ground, began getting light headed and started to feel faint... at this point i called my mother, the only person i could think of right? mommas boy at heart always...
She picked me up and drove me to the e.r. they did two ekg's and an x-ray, and 2hr's later, i spent $100 on a motrin... they had no idea what had caused the pain. I went to my doctor, and he thought maybe just muscle or skelatal pain... when it didnt go away after a few months i went back, and he diagnosted me with Generalized Anxiety Disorder. Which i am now taking Lexapro for... I've been taking lexapro for a good while now, and its not helped alot... while it helped a little, theres still pain... so i have an appointment with a cardiologist.
I'm kinda of freaking out, i've spent the last year with cripling pain, its affected my school work, i'm now failing my class's, its affected my social life, i go out sometimes, force myself even when i get pains so i dont become a hermit lol.. but for the most part i freak out alot when i get pains away from home, or away from the nearest hospital lol... There really more intense when in social situations, but there harder to deal with when around friends... Tonight, and the past few nights, it's felt as though my heart is working overtime just for the most meaningless tasks as sitting down... or walking to the kitchen... I'm not gonna lie, i'm really scared at this point, and have already started thinking maybe the doc's wrong as certain as he seems to be, and that this might be something life threatening. because thats sure what it feels like... i can't sleep right, i stay up all night and sleep all day... i dont know why... i get periods where i may be up for 2 days.. i'm reaching my breaking point and im not sure what to do to make all this go away.. feeling like you might die everyday for a year takes alota the fight outa you...
my parents dont seem to think its that serious, and neither does my doctor... but the pain i feel on a daily basis if at the very least is crushing my mind and spirit... i just dont know what to do anymore... i dont even think we can afford to goto the cardiologist...