I think any response will help me...

Hi All,

On my last post I told you all that I was on the HIV scare trip again. Well its been I think a month now and Im still feeling these obbcessive thoughts. The one time I had unproctected sex it was low risk and ive been tested 3 times and my fiance has been tested as well. ITS BEEN SIX YEARS since this instance.

My question is this: If someone was not treated for HIV for six years wouldnt they be dead or on their deathbed? Im too afraid to look up anything on google as thats what got me into this anxiety mess in the first place.

Why cant I just let this go? I am going to see a therapist on monday however im hoping to get some insight from anyone on if im ever going to be able to put this behind me. Right now i feel like i cant even think about my future.

Kate,


You will be able to put this behind you and I am so glad to hear you are going to see a therapist. Stop the "what if" thinking and please stop the thoughts of death. You are ok so believe that you will get past your fears. Stay in the moment and picture yourself happy in the future.



Gentle Hugs,



Kitt

I had the same thoughts once when I was in my twenties on an occassion that I had unprotected sex. I was not brave enough to get tested but I worried about it for years before getting past it. Seeing a therapist and talking about it is a great idea. I never did that. I am sure you will be able to move past it faster by getting some help. Good luck.