Still panicking since 1987

Hi all. I am glad to have found you. I don't have much good news because I have been on scads of pills for my panic disorder for 23 years. The meds stop working and then I have try more or go back to previous ones. I have had therapy off and on but it has never helped me much. I have PTSD from being raped twice when I was a teen. I am also a teen cancer survivor, and have had 2 abusive marriages. I also had post partum psychosis.  I was raised in a strict religious home and started acting out early. I started taking drugs and hitch-hiking around from 1970 until 1977 when I became pregnant with my first born. Most recently I have lost my 2 eldest kids. My daughter died in a motorcycle accident in 2008 and my son died from an accidental overdose of methadone in 2005. I am desperate to go on but it is way tough. I would like to connect with others as I am lonely. My husband of 18 years is a great guy but he works alot and most of my friends live away from me as well as my family.  Thank You.

Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 6/22/2010 5:55:33 PM (GMT-6)

My heart goes out to you cause I know exactly how your feeling, I have suffered from panic attacks for 30 years I take Xanax it's the only thing that worked for me, at one point I was in my bedroom for 6 months never left the house and barley the bedroom, Xanax is the only thing that got me up and out, I feel your pain for lost of your love ones I lost my Mom, Dad, Grandma, Sister, Mother In Law and 3 uncles all within 2 years, I didn't know how I could go on, I still have panic and anxiety every day, I was never abused but my sister was raped by my father at the age of 12 and had a baby, and my niece was raped at the age of 4 I am the one that found her something I will never forget.I have learned to try and take one day at a time.The words on my desktop God Help Me To Remember That Nothing Is Going To Happen To Me Today That You And I Together Can Not Handle. I wish you all the luck and I will add you to my prayer list God Bless. If you ever need to talk E Mail me. Your post has touched my heart most likely cause I feel the same as you.

Thanks for your reply. I have been attending Compassionate Friends for a few years now. They do help somewhat.