Emotional Abuse leading to anxiety and panic attacks

I grew up receiving a lot of emotional abuse from one of my parents.

Now that I am a adult I am trying very hard to move past this and get on with my life.

I have major anxiety about most everything. Example: I broke a plate at my boyfriends apartment by accident and broke down crying and shaking for fear of being screamed at by said parent even though I do not live with them anymore and have very little contact.

I always feel on edge, I really want to learn to clam down and just be me.

Any suggestions?

Thanks :)

Thanks Kitt :)