i knew this would happen

Hey everyone hope all is well. I'm having a tough time today. I've been kinda "on egde" (as I call it) today and I'm not really sure why. This will be long so please bare with me. Aside from being a little on edge today I've been a little tired since my son had started school we have been adjusting to a new schedule. Even though I'm tired more often I have noticed a change (for the better) in my mood since I don't have to play "referee" to my two little ones every hour. But anyway I think I started feeling bad because I was kinda startled out of my sleep by a strange sensation in my chest which I believe was caused by the way I was laying. Today I was also plagued by that dreaded " not getting enough air" feeling so it kinda bothered me and in turn caused me some chest discomfort. I don't know why (of course I do, its because of my health anxiety) but some chest sensations just bother me, especially the ones where it kinda feels like something is heavy on my chest. Even though I've gotton all of those tests it still bothers me that it might be something wrong. Having palpitations no matter how I'm feeling doesn't help either. My annoying vertigo has been bothering me slightly today also. All in all I still have managed not to break down and have a PA but its wearing me down. Just wanted to come here and share this hoping maybe someones insight would make me feel better. Thanks Guys.
Nelle

Hi, I can so relate to your post! First off I get nervous with the chest sensations too. I honestly think that those of us w/ health anxiety feel things more accutely than everyone else. In other words, everybody gets palps and twinges but probably doesn't even notice them. We on the other hand go on full red alert! I also had the tests, got a clean bill of health and just had to make the conscious choice and effort to believe the doctor.
When I finished my course of therapy, I was really nervous-felt like walking the tight rope w/out the net. I was dissapointed thinking that it wasn't successful. I kept up my exercises, and work though and it did kick-in! I think that it is totally normal to have an insecure period-give it some time-you can always go back, but you may not need to.
I know that keeping up the fight is exhausting! I feel ya-some days I literally fall into bed, but I'm no longer having the panic attacks, so it's worth the effort. Hang in there. Eat well, exercise, and get as much rest as possible. It's important for us to take care of ourselves-as moms we are so busy taking care of everyone else, sometimes we get short-changed:)
Take care,
Scaredy Cat

Good Morning Nelle,

I am proud of you on how far you have come.  It sounds like you are getting caught up in the "what ifs"  - what if I can't make it without my therapist ?  Try to turn that thinking around and give yourself permission to go back to see a therapist when you feel you need to.  Remember the "no man is an island" saying. 

I have been in therapy for a long time but decided to go it on my own for a bit with the option that if I felt I needed to go back even for a few sessions that it would be ok.  Knowing I have the safety net of see a therapist eases my mind and I hope you will feel the same way. 

I still see my Pdoc every other month now so I do have contact with a professional on my calander which helps me stay in the moment.

Gentle Hugs,

Kitt