I finally did it

Today was terrible day for me I felt so depressed, I just wanted to cry and then an anxiety attack hit me..Anyway I also had an appointment with my therapist and she helped me alot. I told her about the increase of my anxiety when trying to take the meds and I don't know if it was the relaxation or what but after the therapy I decided that I needed to start on my medication. I cannot handle it by myself anymore. So tonight I took my lorazepam..half of it but, for me its a huge step after so long fighting the pills. So far I just feel a little bit sleepy and not as anxious I guess with such a low dose (.25mg) but my biggest challenge is on saturday that I am suppossed to start on Effexor..hopefully everything goes fine..I am going to pray more tonight. I really want to get out of this

Way to go,  I am proud of you.  I am also on Effexor and I went onto it very slowly.  My Pdoc allowed me to set my own pace so I would get past the side effects before I increased my dose.  I took a week to 2 weeks before increasing doses.  At one point I held for a month on a step.  So keep in mind this is a slow process and give it the time it needs.  I was afraid of this med but I was more afraid of how awful I was feeling with my anxiety and depression so I chose to tough it out.

You will do what works for you and you have my support.

Kindly,

Kitt

That's it. You have to try things. I hope that the medication works out for you, but just remember it will take some time and if in the end it doesn't work, you're not out of hope. There are still other options such as a different dosage or a different drug, etc..