Dealing with anxiety and trauma after attempted car bombing

Oh no! I am sorry that it is all coming down on you at once! I am glad that you are safe! That is scary about the bomb-scare:0 The good news is that there should be double security around your office for awhile now!
I am sorry about your father's passing anniversary-that is always hard. I hope that you can find some comfort in looking through some photographs, or reading cards/letters that he wrote to you. Remembering the wonderful times you had together is the greatest memorial that you could offer in his memory!
I hope that you can get your script filled soon ( and get off the Grand Marnier-hangover central! lol!)
Take care, you can get through this-we're here for you!
Scaredy Cat

I am so glad you are safe but understand the anxiety kicking in under the circumstances. I would have been shook up too knowing a car bomb was outside my office.


Subzero, I admire you for all you have endured and yet I feel you have a sense of humor under all the anxiety that keeps you from giving up. I am delighted to know you are able to come here and share with us as we are here to support you.



Kindly,

Kitt

Subzeromambo
After reading your post this morning I happened to pick up our Sunday newspaper and the attempted bombing was on the front page. Now this is a co-incidence as my son lived in the city where the incident happened as well as the city the suspect is from. He now lives on the coast but has lived in the area for 22 years. smhair

Small world. Just trivia for you.

Kindly,

Kitt

Thank you everyone for your kind thoughts and suggestions. I really appreciate your support and comments.

The car bomb situation turned out not to be that big of a deal. It was a sting operation set up by the FBI. The bomb was never operational. I have seen a couple of cars with National Security marked on the front doors cruising the downtown area. Other than that it has been pretty quiet.

Remembering the very special times I had with my father when I was a child really helped me to work through my grief. He had a beautiful voice and would read books aloud to a tape recorder when he was traveling. I still have some of the tapes he sent me. He became pretty demented and cruel in his later years. He legally disowned me because of my career choice. He disowned one of my sisters because of her choice of husband and another one for her lifestyle. Only one of his seven children had any contact with him when he died. None of his four wives had anything to do with him. It always feels a little weird to miss someone who caused so much pain.

I am still waking up every night either screaming or crying from night panics. I haven't been having any panic attacks during the day which is great. The alprazolam is working! I know the night problems are because of my husband's unemployment. Tomorrow I find out about the two tumors removed last week. Good heavens, I guess I do have a few things to be anxious about. I just wish I was better at releasing tension in normal ways. Time to start exercising more and keeping a daily gratitude journal.

All my best to everyone!

Post Edited (Subzeromambo) : 11/28/2010 8:32:21 PM (GMT-7)