cln777
I know the "worry" your experiencing and please try to get off that merry-go-round of "what if ? " thinking and stay in the moment.
When your fears have the best of you, it is easy to feel that things will not get any better. This is not true. There is much help available in today’s society and the best way to deal with your fears is to find effective ways to overcome them. Instead of focusing on doom, stay in the moment. Give yourself breathing space. Consider what matters to you. Establish a few manageable goals, then take small steps toward achieving them.
I think we have posted some links for you before but let me post a few here that have helped so many:
Free CBT Online/MoodGYM
http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome
E-couch Online, free
http://ecouch.anu.edu.au/welcome
Kindly,
Kitt