long term anxiety disorder

I was diagnosed with panic disorder when I was 14,I am 42 years old.I was put on a psch. ward for 2 weeks and basically all they could offer me back then was some xanax and 4 meetings inwhich they told me to ask myself "whats the worst that could happen".I was too afraid back then to take the meds anyway.Over the years the anxiety for the most part went away and was replaced by ocd until 4 years ago,something triggered it again(I believe it was a bad reaction to some prescription medicine. I started getting dizziness,I started to drink more,be more irritable,my blood pressure was high and I kept getting more and more infections and inability to sleep,finally it wore down my immune system until I had a severe asthma attack and went into respiratory failure.All of this only made things worse I developed post traumatic stress disorder and hospital psychosis.The hospital psychosis was a temporary thing but the post traumatic stress is still here plus my old panic and anxiety issues.I really don't understand cognitive behavioral therapy but I would like to. I have alot of physical problems 2 of which are treacheal stenosis and fibromyalgia so sometimes these make the anxiety issues worse.I just need some suggestions on how to manage the anxiety.What I really like to happen is for it to go away completely,don't know if theres a chance for that or not.

thanks for the heads up on the book,I usually shop on e bay but I will try amazon.It seems like there is always something each day that tries to push me over the edge for worrying's sake.Today it is a swollen mole that hurts,it could've swelled last week when I was at the dermatologist for the swollen lump on my hip but noooooo,it had to wait til the weekend.