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I have had panic disorder since I was 14.I don't know if it came about from some early traumatic events or something else. I know it has severely affected my life.I have not felt comfortable with myself since I don't know when.Back when I was first diagnosed they gave me xanx and put me into the hospital for 2 weeks to learn how to cope and that was the end of it.For awhile I thought I had it beat(atleast to some extent).I still worried about stuff but the panic attacks were rare then a few years ago for some reason they came back. I choose not to take medications because I don't want to get addicted to them but I do have some on hand for if a panic attack gets realllllllllllllly bad.I also have depersonalization.When I was a kid I used to wonder if we were all real or just apart of someone elses dream(such a weird thing for a kid to think).On top of all this I got really sick last summer and because of what happened to me I developed post traumatic stress disorder.I see a therapist and I am trying to leave my worries"on the shelf"like she says but sometimes it is not so easy.Tomorrow I have to have a bronchoscopy to see if my treachea scar tissue has came back and my nerves are so bad I am having chest pains.I know this is the anxiety because it has happened before and I had an overnight observation at the hospital and they found nothing wrong. I just wish I could find a non medication solution.

Ive had anx/PA ovr 10 yrs, longer. Thought as u did as child. Tons of med tests ovr yrs til dx maj. dep. made. Wldnt take/stick 2 antideps, wanted 2 shake it off myself. Then anx/pa exploded, more med tests til dx made. Tried sev meds til found what works 4 me. We all have similar issues but some differences. 4 ME, I had counseling,have 2 tx mine preventatively instead of when it hits me. Id b in daily repeated attacks, continuous. Buspar 60mg daily stopped PAs, prozac 40mg, klonipin 4 crisis.Have 4-5 med issues that produce anx so must treat those. Tried evry idea Ive come across but this is what works 4 me. Ive been a professional counselor 4 ovr 25 yrs til med too ill last yr. CBT works best as tx but 4 most takes a combo of things that fit 2 manage anx/pa. Its very real, not easy but can b managed! Going it alone nvr works. Just have an openmind n see what works 4 u. This is a great place 4 help-support! U r not alone!

Fought w/meds 4 years on end. Finally learned I was looking @ it the wrong way, wasnt making sense 4 me 2 do that. Still niggles @ me s-times but 4 me, I have a choice 2 treat my med illnesses, die r be miserable. Had beliefs that were inacurate based on opinions of others n werent true. Hard 2realize I had yrs of beliefs that were off n didnt know. Ppl used 2 thk the world was flat n burn witches 2! LOL I wanted quality of my life back n learned HARD-WAY meds r 2 regulate not medicate problems I was having. Balance it back out evenly not unbalance it the other direction, big difference! BALANCE. LEVEL. CORRECT. Still hav2 manage my illnessess' daily my life is so much better.