Hello everyone! I thought it might be helpful to someone if I post my updates on the help I have been getting in the past week or so. Last I posted, I was going through a real rough patch. I passed out a few weeks ago and had been back to square one with my panic attacks brought on by feeling so lightheaded that I thought I could pass out at any moment. Feeling so hopeless and desperate, I decided I needed to really attack this from all angles. So I went to a therapist specializing in anxiety and panic. I liked her and found it nice to at least talk to someone about
my problems who understands and knows what I'm going through. We talked about
the physical symptoms that anxiety and panic attacks can cause that make you think that something is really physically wrong with you. Things like cold and numb hands and feet. I have always had that issue and it made me feel like I was losing feeling and about
to pass out. She said that many of her clients/patients who have anxiety and panic attack issues will have ice cold hands when they are having a panic attack. Or they will start fidgeting with their feet because they will be having a lot of anxiety and they will tell her they can't feel their feet. So strange. It was really nice to hear that I'm not crazy when I feel those sensations. We only had the one session last week and I have another one tomorrow. She said that the issue with my situation is that I HAVE actually passed out. So my fears aren't completely irrational as is the case with some of her patients who have these fears. I have been validated in my fear of passing out. She said anxiety and panic attacks themselves don't usually cause you to pass out. So she suggested that I continue to follow up with my doctor on the physical side of things to see what the cause of my passing out could be.
So I had an echocardiogram done to check the status of my mitral valve prolapse. And I also met with a cardiologist. The echo showed the cardiologist that my MVP is not a benign case and should not be causing me to pass out or feel constantly light headed. Once I described how I felt and my passing out episodes to the cardiologist, he said that it sounds like I have a classic case of vasovagal syncope. Basically that means that the nerves that are connected to my vascular system hyper-react to certain situations like extreme fear, emotions, pain, hunger... could be any number of things.. and they cause my blood vessels to contract and dialate quickly which has caused me to pass out on those five occasions in my life. Once an episode of passing out happens like it did to me a few weeks ago, those nerves are basically on high alert -which is why I have felt like I could pass out at any moment and have not been able to get over the light headed feeling ever since I passed out. Then he gave me some good news! He said that there was a drug that he could give me that could calm those nerves and stop this cycle of me feeling light headed and like I was going to pass out! Really??? And, he added, its something I won't have to take forever! He prescribed Beta Blockers! A low dose beta blocker - 25mg - of which I take half of in the morning and half at night.
I have been taking them for about 5 days now and I actually feel a lot better. I have not been panicking while driving. I have not been feeling like I could pass out at work and at home. Knock on wood - I think that this may be helping me. The only issue with the beta blockers is that they do make you feel sluggish. But I will take temporary sluggishness and loss of energy to stop this cycle of feeling liked I was going to pass out all the time. He also had me wear a heart monitor for 24 hours which I did yesterday. I meet with him again on Monday to get that result and see what his suggestions are for how long to keep me on the beta blockers etc.
I am thankful that I seem to be getting some relief of the actual physical symptoms that were causing me to panic. But I definitely know that my battle with panic is not over. So I am going to continue with the therapist to help with the psychological side of things. I'm feeling hopeful!