Thanks SC! I can really use the encouragement right now, and the kind words from a friend always helps. It's just that my hormones are all over the place, and sometimes, for no reason, I just want to cry, scream or.......throw paper plates!!!
I do keep track of my symptoms somewhat, but not a diary, I use a menstrual calendar, and it happens around the same time every month now. I don't write the symptoms down, because they're pretty much the same each time. I just count the days up until my period start and it's usually a week to ten days before, and then right after I get done it's the same thing.
I get the whole increase in anxiety, some palpitations, and just feeling "off". My blood pressure even goes up slightly when I have my period, especially in the first three days. It hits like 140/90, I know it's not that bad, and it goes back down, but the palpitations sometimes make the systolic number higher than that.
I guess i'm just tired of feeling like this, and it HAS become so much worse since entering peri. I have been dealing with anxiety/panic attacks and depression since I was 14, so that's 25 years now! I just want to feel normal again, but the sad part is, I don't even remember what normal feels like anymore. Most of my life has been riddled with anxiety.
I'm in a "funk" right now, as my mom would call it. I guess i'm just being hard on myself because of having to leave my job and all, and now I feel practically useless because i'm not bringing any money in. I keep trying to tell myself that it was the best thing to do for myself, but it's not working.
My fibromyalgia has been really bothering me since starting peri too, and there are days when I don't feel like even getting dressed, so I stay in my PJ's all day long, and the pain is unbearable sometimes.
They say that any pre-existing conditions you had prior to perimenopause can become worse. I whole heartedly believe that to be true. I've never been this bad with anxiety and depression in my life.
AND of course having all those ailments recently! What's funny is, it was like a domino affect, First the sinus infection, then the yeast infection from the antibiotics, then the UTI from the yeast infection, then right after that I got my "friend"! I mean COME ON! Gimme a break here! Talk about stress!
*BLAH!* 
P.S. Kitt, i'll be waiting for your words of wisdom too, it always relieves my anxiety and depression when I talk to you gals. ;) Thanks so much for being here for me!
((HUGS)) Fox