Hi, my screen name is Display.
It looks like I will be needing a daily checkin, since I am feeling a lot of anxiety and depression. You may have heard me talk about some of these things before.
One thing is that I am housesitting and dogsitting for my sister, and I had no idea when I said I would do it, how much responsibility it is. So many details to take care of! I wonder why I took this on, although I know one reason is that I couldn't imagine how my sister would be able to take her business trip without me housesitting. In other words, afraid of saying no. And honestly, she has a very nice house, but also, she is very picky about how things are done. I know she considers me to be a responsible person, and I probably am, but simply put, I don't like feeling anxious about all the responsibility.
I have an appointment with my psych on Friday, I want to tell him how bad the anxiety is some days, and also that I seem to have lost interest in food. I mainly just eat because I know I need to.
And I've already shared on here about being bored (unemployed), and I am just hoping I have the nerve to try some new things. I am totally bored with the internet most of the time, and TV also seems boring (even with cable).
Finally, wanted to say I have been hitting a real bottom with anxiety about my car. I can sometimes see rationally that there is nothing wrong with it, but it is old, and I have this constant fear eating at me that something will go wrong. I think it is OCD and I probably need to get some help with that. I live in a city where one drives to everything, and because of the anxiety/fear/obsession I find myself avoiding driving.
Today I will go to my depression/bipolar support group, which is always helpful.
Thanks for listening,