Anxiety Wreaking Havoc

Well, our interstate move is done and now we should be settling into a routine with my husband working out of state until Friday nights and then coming to our new home and going back for work on Sunday afternoon. Unfortunately I got sick as soon as we moved in and it has sent my anxiety through the roof. I know this is fear of a new place a new way of life but it doesn't make the panic and anxiety settle down. I found a psych and a therapist and because I'm extremely sensitive to most psych meds the only thing we can use is Xanax. It usually helps for about 6 hours but I'm also having a flare of IBS which is not helping things. It has been 5 weeks of very difficult days and nights. Miss my husband when he is gone during the week and feel "safe" when he gets back on Friday nights. It's tough for me to admit that after all these years anxiety has come back in such a powerful way. The health issues have not helped. Without going into detail I have already been to the ER here (never have gone there in my life) for abdominal pain that would not let up, had to have an MRI because an ultrasound picked up something on my liver. It turned out to be a false positive but the testing was very stressful. They sent me to a gastro who was unsympathetic and very cold. He did an endoscopy and found nothing but my doctor expected an ulcer. I'm very glad that it came back negative. The guy was cold, miserable and has no respect for people with anxiety. Worst doctor I have ever had to see. So it's anxiety and IBS is acting up because of it. All I can say is that I'm exhausted and feel crummy most of the day and night. We made this move to prepare for the future when my husband will no longer be working. Financially it was the right thing to do but for me, it is hell and I had no idea that it would manifest itself in this way. I'm usually a very active, interested in life type but when this anxiety hit it really pulled the rug out from under me. One thing I know is true is that worry begets more worry. I hope that all of us can learn to feel the anxiety and go with it and not project too much because that kind of worry only prolongs the episodes. I'm trying to do that-go with it, feel it, get treated and come out on the other side of this and be who I was at this time last year again. I wish more people would post here daily. It would be great to get a community going where we could get to know a little more about each other and while talking about our anxiety and panic interject talk about the good things we experience and enjoy too. I hope we ALL have a better night tonight!

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Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 5/13/2012 8:51:06 AM (GMT-6)