hi everyone. Im 23 f and new here. Im having a tough time lately and im all over the place. I'll explain all here. So I was on a strict diet from January to the end of march,back on the junk now. Got back with my first love the end of febuary. We have had unprotected sex numerous times because we are both clean. I got a yeast infection and nothing will cure it,also think I have it analy now too. Its not sore as such just uncomfortable.(never had one before,just started after sex with my current bf) Then I looked it up online and HIV sites keep coming up in the search :( I have been up to two docs on numerous occasions convinced I had HIV and they won't even test me,even with there reassurance im driving myself crazy,spend about
80% of my time looking up stuff online. to see what's wrong with me. Now its so bad I can't sleep for more then 3hours and wake up after horrific nightmares. I've lost my appetite and don't wanna leave the house,im convinced I have HIV. I get spells during the day where i think im fine and i feel perfect. Then out of nowhere i start to panic again convincing myself of the worst,my face ears neck and chest get really hot,my throat tightens and i feel dizzy. Oh and i can feel my heart beating really hard in my chest,sometimes i can feel it in my neck too and it hurts. Chest also hurts when i start to calm down I dont wanna spend my life like this,thinking im sick nonstop. Also got checked for cervical cancer out of paranoia.This is taking over my life,i can't concentrate on anything or hold a conversation,don't even want to get dressed anymore. Im on the edge What can i do?
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