general anxiety unrealizm

I am 28 years old with 4 kids and i am really stressed out all the time and worry
that about and over think everything that happens or i think of negative thoughts and
then anxiety kicks in extreme nervousness outta nowhere and sometimes the whole day feels like surreal like its happening but not happening if that makes any sense at all my question is i bedn searching the web for relief i dont want to be addicted to xanax and anti depressanys only make things worse for me it was horrible i started thinking about suicide and the whole 9 so i stopped taking the pristique and i felt great for about 3 weeks then came the anxiety again i am thinking about buying panic away has anyone done that program and does it work
i wanna hear from people who have tryed it not paid actors anyway thanks for listening and
Hearing my story Rickey from Texas