Posted 8/14/2012 12:07 PM (GMT 0)
Hi,after a traumatic divorce, where my husband molested my 17 year old daughter, a court case where he admitted to molesting her, I settled down and re-married an older guy (12 years) older than me. He bought me a restaurant (my dream) and two and a half years later... its a mess... about 2months ago I discovered ****-sites on his computer by accident. I felt betrayed... He admitted that he has looked at one or two sites out of curiosity but that was it>>>I have discovered that he was registered on several free sex sites. On confrontation he denied all, and start accusing me that Im bipolar. (needless to say, that my daughter developed borderline personality disorder from the above trauma - and my husband has no empathy with her). That his email has been hacked and that somebody else is registering him on these different sex sites. ( I got a friend of mine - IT guru -to look into his "secret email" which I discovered from his pc. (All evidence was there) messages, **** winks etc. Confronting him about this, led to a major argument where I totally lost my dignity and hit him on his chest with my fists. He was furious and now "i am bipolar" for sure... I went to the doctor immediately as I felt that I have lost myself - i have never hit someone with my fists every in my life before. Doctor has put me on serdep 50mg for 4 days - then on 100mg. I started with panic attacks - doctor gave me alzam 0.5mg to take at night with z-dorm to sleep... as I was no longer sleeping although I take serdep in morning. For the past two weeks I feel totally out of control and started to take Alzam during the day whenever I feel panic attack coming. Further more I feel aggrivated, aggressive and insecure within my marriage. My husband still deny his participation in the **** thing and told me "that I can leave if im not happy". Im working in the restaurant for 14 hours a day and he is at home... doing nothing.... "watching ****??????? I don't know,? but surely cause he is not interested having sex with me whatsoever??? He abuse me with words, telling me that Im bipolar just like my daughter and that a surprise is coming my way.... We don't talk for about two weeks now as I am too scared that I will loose it again and he will swear at me again...He told me that I am mad and that he will make sure that I get nothing - i will land in psychiatric hospital when he is finished with me. This is abuse??? Both my children is studying, and I have no where to go... should I just stay until I have saved enough money to move out?