Hi guys,
My names Tom I'm 14 and i believe i have a long sprung panic disorder which In my mind means i get over the panic attack but i still worry and get physical symptoms in there own right. My first experience was a feeling of a heart attack, heavy arms pounding heart tight chest and finding myself crying for no reason and saying to myself I DONT want to die this young. I started to fall in to the deep hole of becoming a hypochondriac!! I looked up symptoms chat rooms ect. and i was so unable to reassure myself that i was feeling lightheaded and almost trying to explain to my parents that i felt this way and that i needed to go to AnE now, and they just rejected that and said your fine goto bed. This to me was like, we don't care if you die Tom!! I paced my room i kept on going downstairs crying i couldn't control it, and the next day when i went to school i couldn't call for help neither could i run out and goto a doctors surgery or more importantly that and that my mind craved. So after school that day i went to the doctors with my mum and she gave me a once over and said every thing was fine she couldn't hear a murmur and the reason for my lightheadedness was because my heart was beating so fast!!! I accepted that for a few minutes and then as soon as i got home panic mode!! i got over that about
a week later where i found a very good technique that helped me deal with stress!! Anyway i was fine for a few mounts, went on holiday did lodes of cricked and then 2 weeks ago i had an awful head ache, it felt like i was having a stroke pins and needles all over one side of my body but what my brain wasn't clocking was that i was doing the speech, smile, raising arm's, sight tests and they were all fine it wast just the sensation!! Got over that about
3 days ago now i goto bed dreading if one of them headaches will come back !! For the past 3 or 4 years now I've had an lump extruding from the back of my left testicle to, this is a cyst from what i know but yet my mum still says well your be fine tom if it was anything sinister it would of killed you by now and she is quite right, and it does fit the descript
ion to a cyst, and this benign tumour is not harmful to the human body itself still doesn't clock though!!
Us guys and girls of all ages suffer from all sorts and the strange thing is that our brains are to productive and to creative to give leeway to the real world, and if you think of it like that its amazing really!!
Please just tell me what you guys have done, i don't want to go on meds really because there just a way to mask the actuarial symptom or disorder and once the tablet wares off Anxiety will take its vengeance and give you a kick, just as my aunty tells me that suffers from severe post-traumatic stress disorder which she now 'thankfully' controls !!
But of course if it came to it and it took away the pain of anxiety then its always an option.
Thanks guys, i appreciate you taking the time to read this!!!
Tom x
Post Edited (Quinn97) : 8/17/2012 3:17:43 AM (GMT-6)