Posted 8/25/2012 5:48 PM (GMT 0)
I know that you are worried. I'll share a story, and maybe it will help?
I have a number on my blood test that is consistently out of range (high) Of course I asked my doctor about it, and he said not to worry. (right!)
So I looked it up naturally...big mistake. I learned that it could be anything from something benign...to pre-leukemia! So what do I start to worry about? You guessed correctly;p
I decided to wait it out until it was time for the next test and just see what was revealed at that point. When my brain would go to that place of worry and dread regarding this, I would tell myself:
'It is not time to think about that right now.'
When my yearly came up and I had my blood test, I was sweating bullets about this. I went in and had it done along with my pap and mammogram.
Well I got the results for those and they were both good. I did not receive my yearly CBC results that would include the number that I was worried about however.
I decided that no news is good news. If there was a problem with anything, I would have been alerted. If that number had gone up...or my cholesterol, or anything else was out of line, I would have been called in...but I wasn't so I made an exective decision.
Knowing myself and my disorder...and my tendency to obsess...I decided not to call and get my copy of the tests mailed to me. I am putting the responsibility of that knowledge on my doctor...I am not going to take it on because I will only use it too feed my anxiety.
I don't know if this helps you or not...but sometimes we have to choose to let go of our worries and trust our doctors...not easy, but it can be done...and I feel much better for doing it.:)
S.C.