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Posted 9/2/2012 4:37 AM (GMT 0)
im in tears as i write this. i know its an axiety forum but idk i think im going to panic anyways. so tonight was suppose to be a fun good night but instead it is aweful. i feel betrayed. tonight my 2 brothers and my 2 cousins and i where suppose to go bowling. my cousin ruth are really close but lately me and her sister which are also cousins (duh) has been mad at me because i wasnt able to take care of her kids last week. so i never expected this from my cousin ruth.  we were suppose to go bowling but my cousin calls me and tells me that her sister wants to go iceskating instead but that she was going to call me back and tell me what they decided. anyway they called back and my big bro aswered and they asked to speak with my little brother. they just invited him to go iceskating and that was it. she never told me her decision so i knew i wasnt invited. she never told me oh im going iceskating with them instead or anything. so i was left all alone. i was already dressed and everything. i never expected this from her. it really hurts. i know she is her sister but at least an explanation or something. they picked up my brother and left. like they were all aviodin me. my big bro left with some friends. i feel so alone.
Posted 9/2/2012 5:48 AM (GMT 0)
Oh man, I am really sorry.:( Family troubles are the worst!

I remember a few years back, my sister and I were not getting along due to a similar issue...it had to do with a disagreement about my daughter. (she did not think that I was parenting here correctly...I am tough-love, she is lenient)

Anyway, we (my husband and I) were not invited to any family function that she hosted at her house for a while. It was very hurtful.  I misse my niece's birthday party!

Now everything is all worked out...and all of that is just an unpleasant memory. It is tough though, because you think of your family as always being there for you.

The truth is though that the family is full of all kinds of dynamics and dramas! I know that this hurts now, but I am sure it will be resolved soon.

Try to get together and talk it out sooner than later, or things will just drag on.

I hope that you realize that this has nothing to do with the wonderful person that you are...and everything to do with family angst!

Hugs to you tonight;)

S.C.
Posted 9/2/2012 6:23 AM (GMT 0)
it is hard, i dont even know how to approach this situation. i am not the confrontal type.my cousins are. i think ill just hide out and ignore them to avoid confrontation. beside with all thatt has been happening to me latley i seriously cant deal with this. im crying my self to sleep tonight :'(.my mom asked why i didnt go out and i just told her i didnt want to go anymor. i was about to cry sp i just locked myself in my room. they still havent brought my bro home. loneliness/anxiety/depression suck
Posted 9/2/2012 2:53 PM (GMT 0)
Yes, anxiety and depression are not good...but I think that it is important to remember that anyone would have been feeling sad and left out in this situation!

Try to look at it as a normal reaction. If you look at it as part of your disorder, then you are taking on responsibility that you don't own!

Your cousin was the one acting nasty if you ask me! You wouldn't/couldn't do her a favor, so she 'punishes' you? That is her bad behaviour that she is responsible for.

It is certainly up to you how you want to handle it, but know that you did nothing wrong here IMO.

Try not to let is allow you feel anymore anxiety or sadness today.

S.C.
Posted 9/2/2012 3:06 PM (GMT 0)
Today had already started off bad. I woke up feeling lonlier than ever. It is awful. I feel like I have no friends. I kinda have distant myself from them ever since I got anxiety and ask the stuff with my surgery because I dint like when they ask questions. Like why u have that. And now I feel betrayed from my own family. I don't have anyone to talk to our to go to. The only friend that I had that I felt actually cared for me and was comfortable with was.moved to another state. I could call her but it's not the same beside she has her own problems
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