My Situation

Hello,

I was wondering if anyone had any advice for me.

I am currently suffering with severe anxiety in regards to health. I have always worried! I had AIDS tests done when I was young and I am always, and I do mean always, worrying about myself and cancer or my family and cancer. I am taking 100mg Zoloft yet my anxiety still comes and goes.

I think I'm living in a vicious circle. I worry about having stomach cancer because of the dyspepsia my Dr diagnosed, even though he has told me the chances are remote in the extreme. I often have nausea on and off and even though my Dr has told me dyspepsia and anxiety cause nausea, I fear it is because of a brain tumour as a result of googling symptoms (which I know I shouldn't do). I have a colonoscopy and endoscopy booked but not until March.

I have a very loving and supportive family, steady teaching job and a great home in the country however my life is being completely ruled by my anxiety, depression and stomach issues. My Dr prescribed me Alapam to take when I feel necessary but I just want to get over this and move on.

I have just read Kitts post and I feel so immature and ridiculous because of what is happening to Kitt, yet I just can't stop. Each day I wake and tell myself, not today but then I start waiting for my physical symptoms to start. I may get a pang of nausea and then the heart races and I think to myself, "See, it must be cancer if it keeps coming back. Today, however I feel fine! But my stomach feels so nervous and jittery just waiting for it to return. When I have had a drink or two, all my symptoms disappear along with the anxiety.

I'm not sure what anyone can do, but I just needed to get it off my chest and share my ridiculous affliction. My mum is a worrier but my condition seems to be getting worse.

If anyone would like to respond, share or shout then please do so.

Thank you so much for reading my story.

Jamie (39yr old male)

Hi Snakebit, I can relate somewhat to you. I've felt the fear of havi g a bad disease like HIV and while I know I haven't led a lifestyle that can trigger those thoughts they pop into my mind. I'm taking Zoloft 125mg. It seems like its working but I still have my days when I feel anxious. I try to read positive quotes and listen to music. I also pray a lot and that seems to help me. I wish you the best and trust in God.