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Posted 1/16/2013 12:59 AM (GMT 0)
Hi all. I'm in a panic and can't stop worrying. I had a bone pain in my pelvis for a week. Not constant but it was there. It started to get a little better but I made an appt with an ortho just the same. Please know I have an extreme doctor phobia. I'm always afraid they'll find something horrible. I went today. He wasn't sure what was causing the bone pain so he wanted to get a MRI and bone scan. Cancer bells went off in my head. I explained my fears so he agreed to give me naproxen for 2 weeks and we would meet again. Of course I googled everything when I left and literally had an anxiety attack. I called him at the office and asked him if he was looking for cancer. He said no. The test can find other things including tumors. I can't stop worrying and crying. I'm scared. I'm not marred so I have no husband to fall back on. My mother is elderly and I don't want to panic her. My other sibling lives 2000 miles away. I tried to get him to just do the MRI but he said it was important to do both. I guess I think if he would back off on the bone scan I could probably get cancer off my mind. I'm sorry for the long post but I didn't know where to turn
Posted 1/16/2013 5:10 AM (GMT 0)
Hi S.O.

I am so sorry to hear that this has you so worried. I think that your doctor is just being thorough. Of course, doctors don't understand sometimes just what this puts us 'Anxies' through!!!

There is a saying in the medical community...

'Upon hearing hoofbeats...don't look for zebras.'

In other words, there are so many other things that this is more likely to be than some big scary diagnoses, or cancer...

Add that to the fact that your doctor even said that he is not looking for or anticipating anything of the sort...and you have the over-active imagination of an anxious mind at work.;p

Two weeks is a long time to wait...but I bet that your pain even goes away before then.:)

Until your test, remind yourself that it is not time to worry about the results now.

Distract yourself everytime your mind tries to wander down the worry track...because you will have ended up fretting and causing yourself undue fear.

Keep posting here with us as well...and we will talk you down, and understand and care.

It is going to be allright.

S.C.
Posted 1/16/2013 6:07 PM (GMT 0)
Hi. Thanks for your response. I need to stay away from Dr. Google, but it's difficult. I'm now researching bone pain caused by cancer that has metastasized. How nuts is that. And it's not two weeks to the test. He just put me on naproxen for 2 weeks since I flipped out when he mentioned a MRI and bone scan. He's probably hoping the pain goes away or lessens significantly by then. I'm so focused on the pain (which isn't even bad) that I can't think about anything else. I feel foolish. I know better but these thought have me in their grip. I hate this.
Posted 1/16/2013 8:02 PM (GMT 0)
My life in a nutshell the past month! I suffer from anxiety and truly believe myself to be a hypochondriac :) Anyhoo, Dr. Google is very comforting yet a total nightmare for me! Its literally a catch 22. I have a wide array of symptoms and have received an MRI (12/31/2012) seen the neurologist last Friday and am going in for an MRA tomorrow morning. Needless to say I have been an anxious mess! Your not alone! Try to remain calm and think positive. At least you are getting these tests done, you may be anxious now but later on it will be a piece of mind knowing that if you get the pain(s) again you know what it isn't!! Along with CBT, I have been looking on the resource center here on HW and there is some great material. One in specific lists some questions to ask yourself such as "what is the possibility of that actually happening?" so I keep telling myself that. And if your tests reveal something then you can deal with it then...until then try not to dwell on it. You will know soon enough :) Also the more you dwell on something the greater it gets. I have been thinking I have a lack of blood flow to my brain, therefore I have all kinds of symptoms which when I really don't think about it they are lessened. I, like you, know better...its not easy shoo-ing the thoughts away! Wish you the best, keep us updated on your tests.
Posted 1/16/2013 11:58 PM (GMT 0)
I'm still hoping the pain goes away and I won't need tests. I can pray and hope for that I guess. I probably should have put on my big girl pants and just had the tests. I'm not certain what's worse. Waiting to have the test or waiting for the results. I guess when you suffer from health anxiety both are bad. The odd part is on the outside people think I'm strong and decisive. I'm very reactive and do things right away. Except for health issues. Then I'm a puddle. Which resource had the questions you mentioned?
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