New Member Introduction

I just wanted to introduce myself and give a bit of background. My panic attacks started about two years ago out of blue as most do. I started pacing, couldnt breath, my arms and lips were tingling and my heart was out of control! Never experiencing anything like this before, I thought I was dying! I have two children who were only 1 and 2 years old at the time and thinking about "What if I die? What will my children do till their father get's home" Only made it worse. I called 911 and continued to freak out! When he arrived, I was still pacing. He came into my house and sit down on my couch and still pacing, I explained to him what was going on and he said that it sounded like a panic attack to him! I was so ashamed! Since then, I have struggled with anxiety on a daily basis and have had four major panic attacks since. Sometimes I can control it and sometimes it just runs rampant. I cant have any type of caffeine or I'm sure to have the palpatations and my husband makes the most wonderful coffee! I'v been to the doctor over ten times I know for all the different symptoms of anxiety and sometimes they say something new and sometimes they just look at me like I'm crazy! Iv tried medication twice, once when my mother passed away for about six months and it did the trick but this past summer I tried a new kind and had an adverse reaction that lasted an entire month! A constant state of panic or an entire month! I was sure that I was crazy then! I'm just so glad that I'm not alone in this and grateful that I have found this fourm!

Post Edited By Moderator (Scaredy Cat) : 1/31/2013 9:24:46 PM (GMT-7)

Thank you and yes, I started therapy last month actually. Today will make my second appointment. I'v been trying to leave the anxiety behind because I started college in Jan. and I dont want the anxiety to hold me back! Plus I have two adorable sons that dont deserve to see they're mother being a mess lol The worst part is having it almost everyday! It's drove me to have stomache problems and recently I started taking high blood pressure medicine and I'm only 26 years old! I have an awesome husband but he see's this as more of an aggravation than a condition and I usually dont even tell him when I'm having any symptoms because he almost get's mad because he's expecting me to have to go to the ER. I can understand his anger but It's not helping me any!