Extremely 'Blue' Day

Hello,
Today has been really hard for me. I woke up this morning feeling very off. My left arm was numb and my chest was really red and itched a bit. I took my bp and it was fairly low 93/76 and my pulse was higher p 82. I called my doc about the redness and itching and told him it felt like a rash. He told me to stop my Topamax for now and drink plenty of fluids. He said that as long as my top number in my bp didn't drop under 90 there was no cause for concern unless I started feeling symptomatic (I.e. dizzy) and told me to call him if it did. Before he called me though I had a kind of panic attack but it was more emotional than physiological. I was on the verge of tears, and still am to an extent. I am so tired of dealing with this everyday and going in between feeling ok one minute and like I'm going to die the next. With the chronic headaches (that the Topamax did help with) and odd body pains I just feel 80 years older than I am. I don't know if anxiety is the sole cause of this all but it is really debilitating. I'm upset that this is effecting my work and social life. I do feel 100% better than I did when I was on Zoloft but I'm weary. My heart really goes out to those that suffer chronic illness. My mother does and it pains me to put her through the stress about worrying about me. I've had to stay with my parents the last four nights, excluding last night, and I really want to sleep in my own bed but it's always terrifying. I realize that I am probably ok and the fact these same symptoms have been going on for three weeks and I'm still alive give testament to that. But it doesn't make it easier. I can't lay down and feel normal. I can move around and feel completely normal, but as soon as I lie down the fluttering begins. The medicine the doctor gave me for GERD helps a little bit and has settled my stomach.
I have an appointment with a cardiologist tentatively to further evaluate my chest pain/discomfort. I look forward to it and my next therapy appointment as well.
It's just really hard and like I said today has been a blue day for me.
-Rxclusion

Rx, what is it with all of us really, I am 70 years old and have gone from being a jerk that thought people that suffered with anxity were just weak people or too lazy to get up and get with life, sometimes God gets even with people like me at age 48 I had my first grand mall anxity attack, no turning back it was pure hell the first 10 years but seemed to taper off I now have them about every 4-6 weeks or when I tell someone I havent had an anxity attack in X number of weeks. I set myself up and I will have one out of the blue, I don't take anything for them now because I finally realized that no matter how scared and out of control I feel I am not going to die, then they seem to taper off over about 6 hrs. Find a med that will give you some rest and alow you to lookinto what drives your problem, I guess its no worse that being a dibetic and having to take insulin every day, just keep puting one foot in front of the other and it will get better it has helped me to Love someone more than I love myself!
Larry