Hello,
It hasn't been all too long since I have checked in but I decided to go ahead and do it again.
I talked about
last time that my therapist wanted me to try Hypnosis Therapy and in our last session he went over the preambles of it. I found that the therapy itself was quite relaxing and I was ultimately really calm during and immediately after the session. This didn't last though and I eventually was back to the old chest flutters that night whenever I laid down to try to sleep. I woke up the next day with sore ribs and it hurt fairly bad whenever I tried to exhale. Not sure if the breathing exercises did it or if I had laid on my side the wrong way the previous night. Anyway the soreness and trouble breathing subsided the next day but I still am having a horrible time sleeping. I didn't go to sleep until 5:30am this morning and 8:30am the previous morning. I am just up all night with chest flutters and I am worried about
why they are so prevalent every night. I was unable to do the therapy technique the day my ribs/lungs hurt but I was able to yesterday and it did help a little bit. The Xanax does absolutely nothing to calm the heart flutters it just basically helps me pass out from the exhaustive toll my body is going through. I was having problems with palpitations but I increased my dosage of Atenolol from 25MG to 50MG and it seems to help my pulse from being in the high 80's-100's. Of course with the increased dosage I am dealing with the low heart rate again. It's like I can have one or the other, tachycardia or brachycardia.
I have come to the conclusion I am probably not dieing and if I am this is the longest death anyone could ever experience (over a month long ordeal). I want to get where I can get back to my home and sleep there, or at least attempt to, but every time I have tried to sleep at home the past 4 weeks I have a horrible time and it makes me want to sleep at my parents. I need to sleep at home for various reasons but it just isn't possible for me at the moment. I don't want to feel like a burden to my parents and I know I am making them worry. My roommates are also quite worried because I haven't been there in a long time. This is just frustrating and I appreciate everyone's help and advice.
I am praying that you all feel some respite from your pains and angst.
-Rxclusion