A friend of me has a forum, like this one, and I am registered in it, and we are in another forum too.. She had a problem with one person in the other forum, the one that it's not hers, that person was agressive and she answered, she didn't go to the forum again, but she texted me in her forum that she was very angry, that the operson who was rude has double standars, that she's playing to be a saint... And I felt her anager, so I answered to that person, I was not rude and Ididn't insulted her, but I was like very direct with her, and then someone else answered and I answered the same way (I felt like she deserved it because I felt she minimized what I said some time), but then, she was very kind, and I still was angry,I kept reading my friend's msgs so Ikept answering the same way.
Today my fgriend said that this person texted her and that she was sorry, and my friend said: "...and I don't have problems talking to her, I really don't, but I will come back later, maybe I could invite her to my forum so yo ucan answer her here, she won't know it's you, but you will know it's her, so you will have advantaje" (I don't know if I explained myself well in this phrase)... and I don't know if I understood well, she wanted me to ansnwer like being aggressive? Ot she just said it like , I don't know, just to answer her and she didn't know it was me? I didn't tell her but I was like, you dno't have problems talking to her'? It's good, but why was she acting like she hated her, and I was trying her to feel good, and now I was the agressive person after all, that was not even about
me, but I did feel very mad when I read the answers what my friend told me.
I know I have anger problems, sometimes I'd like to yell everyone for no reason or when I feel hurt for someone they said (like minimizing my feelings or when someone trys to tell me that I'm overreacting with something), actually I think I did it once here
...
So, I don't understand, I acted like a lion because of what my friend told me or just because I wanted to take all of that anger out:S, and now everyone thinks I LIKE when people talks to me strong or rude and it's not that way, I am very sensitive when someone even looks at me in an agressive way but I don't know why I do this.
And it worried me because it's not only in forums, in real life it's the same and I try to calm down and I don't DO or SAY anything, actually I feel like I'm verysubmissive, but my facil expression can't deny how I feel, and I'm afraid that I'm going to explode sometime and do something stupid, like I did in that forum.
This forum it's not about
this but I hope someone can tell me something please.
Post Edited (GreekGoddess) : 5/4/2013 1:34:01 PM (GMT-6)