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Posted 5/6/2013 9:19 PM (GMT 0)
I'm so scared no matter what doctor I go to they never have dealt with anybody like me. I'm so scared that I will live like this for the rest of my life. I'm suffering so badly. I'm dizzy when walking a lot of times it feels like I'm sinking into quick sand. Saw a phycharitist(sp) today, he has no clue, he asked me what if you had to spend the rest of your life like this. GUESS WHAT I COULDN'T EVEN THINK OF LIVING THE REST OF MY LIFE LIKE THIS, it's torchure and cruel! It's hard to do anything everyday, it's so hard. Just to brush my teeth take a shower I get anxious and really dizzy. The only one that understands me is my cat. Saturday night I called a nurses line just to talk to somebody, it didn't work out that well so she called the police, and they came to the house. I was so hysterical I screamed at them. They asked me if I wanted to go to the hospital, I refused and said I had every doctor from A to Z and they can't help me, what makes you think the emergency room is going to do for me a shot of Ativan on my butt and send me inpatient somewhere that doesn't help. There is no family or friends that really care to help me through this. My heart races just typing this, that's pretty sad that I'm anxious sitting here typing. I'm not meant for this life!!!!!!!!! Use to be a pretty happy person, what a waste of life. So saaaaaaaaaaaassad!!!!!!!!!!!!! cry cry cry cry cry
Posted 5/6/2013 10:32 PM (GMT 0)
You are not alone here. Have you thought about seeing a therapist? You can't think about this long term, take it one hour at a time.

Deep breathing exercises help, they really do. Don't let your thoughts snowball out of control, breath and concentrate on the moment. It does sound like you need to see a Dr. Have you thought about this at all? I am on 3 meds to help my anxiety. My Dr works miracles to help me stay sane.

So breath deeply, stay in the moment, don't let your thoughts snowball out of control, think about the moment, now, not tomorrow, not next week, just now.
Posted 5/6/2013 10:46 PM (GMT 0)
Thanks so much. I do have a therapist, she has no clue she was the one that set me up with phycharitist. Nobody knows how to fix me. I think that is what stresses me is nobody including doctors don't know the fix. Everytime I see my doctor she finds things wrong with me, but its not the cause of my chronic illness. If I could get my husband to stay with me, I would probably feel better. I'm alone all the time. I only sleep 4 hours a night, I know this doesn't help my anxiety.
Posted 5/6/2013 11:31 PM (GMT 0)
So the question becomes...what are YOU going to do for YOU H.T.?

I have a sense of you almost feeling victim to your disorder, and your husband's lack of understanding.  Here is the problem with that thinking...it robs you of a sense of empowerment and control over your situation.

It is time for you to take things into your own hands.

I would ask for a new therapy referral.

I would read and use every Resource that we have in our Guide here (main page, 1st post) Practicing the exercises everyday.

I would go to my library and check out everybook on anxiety/panic, A/D and dealing with chronic illness that I could get my hands on. 'What Happy People Know' By Dr. Dan Brown is a good one! I actually did check out all the books on the subject at my library (they must of thought I was one messed up chick!) and took from each what was useful for me...essentially custom tailoring a self-help program for myself!

I would order some CBT workbooks off of Amazon (I can make recommendations if needed) for dealing with anxiety and panic. These you have to buy, since you will need to do journal type activities in them.

...but most of all I would try to change my thinking from:

"All of these bad things are happening to me...and I am miserable."

To:

"I have the power to make positive changes within myself, despite the lack of my husband's support, or any obstacle!"

We can't change others, or control every situation, but we can always make change within ourselves.

Now show everyone what you are made of my friend!

S.C.
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