Anxiety, trouble eating, lots of drinking.

shrogface

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Joined : Jun 2013

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Posted 6/7/2013 5:53 PM (GMT 0)

Hi everyone,
I've been suffering from anxiety/depression and panic attacks for the past 7 years. I've lost jobs because of this crap and I'm fed up!
I was on Lexapro for years and out of nowhere it stopped working. I started taking Niacin and that helped for a while. Usually, my problems only surface in the winter time. I also have a severe dependance on the sunshine. I'm a naturally very happy, loving person.
I've tried everything; medication, breathing, attempted EMDR therapy, but now I'm out of insurance and cannot afford any more. Just to get through work I drink. I never get drunk but its just enough so I can get the job done without freaking (my managers smoke **** on the job so I'm too worried about that). When my anxiety isn't an issue, I can handle alcohol very responsibly. I know its just a bandaid now and eventually it goes away.
This anxiety used to happen about 2-3 times/year for only about 2 weeks at a time. Now, I've TWO month long episodes since December. I'm afraid that if this keeps up, I may (mention of self harm). I'm a religious person but I'm at my wits end. WHY DOES THIS EXIST!?!

Post Edited By Moderator (Scaredy Cat) : 6/7/2013 4:43:56 PM (GMT-6)

lgm1942

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Joined : Feb 2013

Posts : 6016

Posted 6/7/2013 9:00 PM (GMT 0)

Personally I think anxiety is from satin, but even if it is God will defeat him, I don't want to preach you already
know all these things. Most alcoholics have been found to suffer from anxiety, I know when I first got home
from VN I drank pretty hard for about 30 years. Just a suggestion, when I first heard of it I didn't think much
of it but tried it anyway, bennidryl has been one of the best meds I have used, I just take one at bed time
and read something I normally wake up holding the book, my glasses on and the light. I shut everything down
with as little movement as possible and wake up 6-8 hrs later.

Larry ***

Jojanxiety

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Joined : Apr 2013

Posts : 252

Posted 6/7/2013 9:02 PM (GMT 0)

For me I think anxiety is test for me from God for my gratefulness. It saved me from being depressed. Before I didn't care for most things and even wasn't able to thank Him when I was at my best. I thought I was invulnerable. I ate much and refused hard work. I just didn't care. I think that's being depressed is all about, when you don't care at all, worry and give meaning to everything that happens even the little things. But when I got anxiety I suddenly got to care about everything, worry about everything, give meaning to everything and feel thankful for everything even the small things like feeling good for just one day, I don't even want to die just yet. I get to know my wife and feel happy again before I even got anxiety and never thanked God for her. But now anxiety brought me closer back to Him and got my faith back. Being thankful and faith was what I lack before. That's what we should try harder not to lose. Hope is what God gives us back in return. So please think about it before even thinking of taking your own life. Life isn't perfect for all of us.

Scaredy Cat

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Joined : Sep 2006

Posts : 28868

Posted 6/7/2013 10:50 PM (GMT 0)

Hi Shrogface and welcome,

First of all I would be remiss if I did not post this information for you. If you are still having those dark thoughts, please call a loved one and one of these helplines right away.

National Suicide Hotline
1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)
This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.

Helpful Web Sites:
Suicide Hotlines (listed by state)
Suicidal.com (includes Suicide Crisis Center and Depression and Suicide)
SuicidalTeens.com

I hope however that you are in a stable place right now though.

Since you are without insurance at the moment, I would suggest that you have a look into our Resources here on our main page to start.

We have some pretty amazing free self help ideas, including free on-line therapy (CBT) which is very effective if done everyday.

Also, can you call your local hospital or clinic and inquire about no/low cost therapy help that may be available to you? There are often programs for people who need assitance...you may need to get on a waiting list, but it is one step closer in the right direction.

Keep posting here with us as well. It is helpful to know that there are others who understand and care. We are here for you support, so please post anytime.

Talk to you soon,

Scaredy Cat

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