My anxiety lately.

Hello everyone

I just want to tell you all how I have been doing with my anxiety. For those who don't know me I am a 17 year old male ( profile has it wrong) and for a little over 4 months I have had some scary health anxiety with the concern mainly with my heart. I am in therapy and have been tested with bloodwork EKG and chest X-ray about 5ish months ago and later got tested with an echo and a 24 hour holter monitor. Everything came out fine but I was still dealing with anxiety troubles because I couldn't believe anything anyone said. My weird chest symptoms and feeling drive my anxiety and made me convinced I had like heart failure or disease or some issue. Side note: I looked on the Internet ALOT in the past which gave me my knowledge of these diseases. But lately I have been doing well after the night I went to go see the new Star Trek I felt like everything shut off. No anxiety or symptoms and now that school is over I have a big stress reliever.

But lately I felt some of the symptoms come back but they haven't been very debilitating. Such as a couple palpitations or short of breath and stuff like that. Some of my old thoughts have come back too like thought of dying today or something inside failing ( don't like to say it because it makes me nervous) and the fact that I won't live until I'm 80. And today I was mowing the lawn and near the end I really started to sweat because it was hot outside and that with hard work isn't fun. Afterwards I had really mixed physical and mental feelings such as the feeling if relaxation and calm but at the same time I had those anxiety symptoms I mentioned plus the bad thoughts I mentioned too. I haven't sweat that much since my last day of the Insanity workout( which got me into my worries). Idk I feel I am in a mellow mood and just have mixed feelings too. At one point I'm physically relaxed but on another hand I feel worried and thinking to myself " woah why do I feel like this shouldn't I have energy right now Im young is there something wrong with me" and that something wrong is basically what I explained my fear is. Idk what happened. I'm able to go throughout the day and do my activities I like to do which is a plus but I just really have alot of conflicts within myself right now.

Can anyone give me some advice or offer help? I am not like how I was in the past. Those who know me know how I acted in the past and I'm not limiting myself right now I am going out and doing things but I just have this conflict in myself right now and I need a little guidance.

Thanks, Jocipher.

Jocipher,

Doing hard work in the heat will wear anyone out. It's okay to get hot, sweaty, tired and uncomfortable mowing the lawn.

My husband is older than you, of course, but still quite young. He does manual labor outdoors everyday and is in very good shape, but he still gets hot, tired, sweaty and sore doing it. Every day, he's a big puddle of sweat when he gets home.

That's natural. So are some of the aches and pains that come along with it. ;)

Good job on mowing the lawn! That is great!

Sorry to hear your anxiety is bugging you.

I know it is scary to experience things similar to your first attack. I've had an attack every Friday at work since my first attack, about the same time a day.

You're right, though, you can push through it!

I'm sorry to hear that.

You'll make it through this, though. We both know that. You've made it through social engagements before and you'll make it through this one and many more.

Is some of that anxiety about the girl good old-fashioned butterflies in the stomach? Was she cute? ;)

In all seriousness, will send prayers and positive thoughts your way. You can handle this!