Bad experience with therapist who had no idea what OCD is

I don't even know where to begin. I been trying to find a therapist that can help me with my Pure OCD. I went to a place and when I went in to the office the place was nice, calm and everything clean. The receptionist was polite had no complains, they took my insurance the copay was good. But it all went down when I had my session , I explained to her about Pure OCD and how I feel and all the obsessions I had. That I think I could harm someone, that I can be bad or evil, that I could somehow have schizophrenia.That I have panic attacks , anxiety, intrusive thoughts , heart palpitations and I doubt everything. She kept yawning the whole time holding her head, then she asked me questions insisting if I had washing , counting compulsions. Then she asked me if I had panic attacks and if i was scared of being on public places I said no( she asked me this many times). I have panic attacks but I don't have social anxiety , I have a lot of anxiety , panics and OCD or pure OCD. when I explained to her my obsessions she stared at me like she had no idea of what I was talking about. She made me questions and then pretty much I showed her a book about OCD that a previous therapist asked me to work on, until now I bought and began to work on it, she was an expert on OCD, I didn't really started the therapy because she was not covered by my insurance, it was 100 dollars each visit and after a while i felt better.She said keep reading that and we will work on phobia scale and anxiety!!!!
Anyway I have gone to two anxiety/ OCD experts and 2 psychiatrist.Never really stick to therapy because of insurance problems. Regardless I have never meet a person that is yawning when you are trying to tell her something, or laughs on disbelief . I think she has no Idea of what OCD or Pure OCD is. The problem is it affected me because OCD makes me doubt about things, thanks to her now I am having intrusive thoughts about not having OCD and being crazy, when this happens I get like research compulsions and I check the facts about pure OCD so I can reassure myself I have OCD. I am trying to not do any compulsion, so I have to resist and know that is OCD what makes me doubt.
Anyway It made me sad and upset because Its hard to talk about this, and for the 150 that she charges I didn't need to have someone not care about what I have. Then she said that my insurance is not covered by many, and she continued with how bad is my insurance is , then how she is very bussy with all her football games, and how she can't see me as often because of that ! WAY TO HELP AN OCD SUFFERER!
I won't go again and ill keep searching for someone that has experience, Ill go back to one of the two OCD experts. I hope they take my insurance this time and next time I will ask if they actually know anything about OCD!!
I just want everyone to know OCD is not only a hand washing cleaning disease, its not about being clean or counting or being scared of bacteria! its way more than that !
If you have OCD , or pure OCD please any advise is really appreciated !
Karen

This person is a total unprofessional know it all, no matter what you told her she had preconceived opinions.

Sounds like she was in the business for a hobby or maybe to obtain gossip material for her friends.
Don't give up, there are many more people who follow that trade that really care about their clients.
I couldn't afford one on one therapy and I found a group for a smaller fee, the group was the answer for
me, it's the closest thing to this forum I have ever found, "You were a much better patient than she was
a counselor". You will find the answer you are looking for! Peace

Larry ***

Thank you all ! I am ok I guess I just need to work tomorrow on finding another therapist. I kind of feel a little tired and sad today, like tired very tired . But I am ready to do whatever it takes to get this OCD under control. I doubted a lot about having ocd , that is when I know my OCD is bad.I am having really weird detailed nightmares :S and I am irritable and I know it , I try to control myself and not be angry or anything. I feel better when I am out of my house doing things, even when I have panic attacks , I feel better if I go out. I don't have a job right now I am trying to find one. This makes me even more anxious, because I am senior in college and I have to get some money because I am not taking summer classes so I have too much free time. I get scholarships, but still I feel like :S useless like this , like I feel bad I should work. I enjoy working , one thing that I have to admit is my book is helping ! more than the prozac and other pills. SO if anyone has any readings about OCD or anxiety ! share please !

I read this quote and it helped me a lot ,because sometimes we have days that suck full of anxiety. It think, well at least in my case I have to learn to look at each day as a new clean start to overcome my anxiety and ocd, not get attached on what happened the day before.

Anyone who knows me,
should learn to know me again;
for I am like the moon, you will see with a new face everyday

Rumi

Thank you so much

Karen

I'm glad to hear you're okay. I like that determined attitude. :)

Here's a thought - until you can find a job, if you just need to be out of the house and doing something positive, maybe you can volunteer somewhere. :)

Best of luck in the search for both employment and a better therapist!

I think I could be getting depressed or something, I feel lately I don't have much energy to do stuff. I used to be doing things all day. I feel really tired and sometimes a little sad. I don't want to die or anything like that. I think maybe experiencing anxiety for a long time takes some tole on our bodies :/?
I have an appointment in two days I think I will be going back to lexapro I wake up in the morning so dizzy like I need to go back to sleep.
Is this depression?

Luna

Call your local hospital, or the largest hospital near you, and ask for their physician referral desk. Tell them exactly what kind of doctor you're looking for..............in your case a therapist/psychologist who truly understands OCD and they will give you names of doctors they actually know.

Personally, that other therapist you saw who was having difficulty staying awake............I'd report her IMMEDIATELY.

Her behavior went far beyond unprofessional and entered the realm of needing to be censored. Do this not only for how she treated you, but for the next poor soul who winds up in front of her seeking help.

I wish you the peace you're searching for and know you will find it when you find the right therapist. Who, by the way, IS out there waiting for you!

Peace

Mountaingirl 

BeRock , I think so too! I think maybe its just so much anxiety. I feel like tired of having OCD, i dont know if i am really depressed a little or is that I have harm OCD and i am afraid of hurting myself. That is why I get scared of every depressed sensation I have . I don't think I want to die or anything, I just really I want to get better and sometimes I feel tired and very sleepy,I am not as active as before. I am not taking any pill. I think I should take some medication , it can help me !

Thank you

karen