Posted 6/19/2013 1:15 PM (GMT 0)
My brother laughs at me thinking why I can't just stop feeling miserable because of anxiety. When something comes up he'll always say "Don't think about it". There was a time when I was so anxious and can't leave the house because I was panicking, feeling weird and dizzy and I asked him if he can be the one to go to the grocery, he stared and gave me a pity smile thinking how useless and weak I can be, maybe also thinking I was just making excuses because I simply didn't want to go out and feeling lazy. One day I even told him I like him to have anxiety just to understand what I'm going through, he was overconfident to reply "I'll never get to experience it in my entire life." and even said if he gets to experience it, he'll recover from it quickly in no time. He also find it silly that I joined HW and doesn't believe how many people are going through this since it's not common here in our place. I maybe the only one among those people we personally know like friends and relatives to be in this situation. Sometimes I even wonder how worst it became for me since I lived with anxiety my whole life, how truly weak I am for not being to handle my stress and anxiety, for being depressed in the past.