Anxiety troubles

Hello everyone

I remember a few weeks ago I was posting a forum explaining how I overcame anxiety but I suppose that was an unexpected lie to you all and am deeply sorry because I still cannot seem to beat anxiety if it comes back. I don't know why but my anxiety has indeed come back and is giving me alot of trouble.. All of the physical symptoms I feel in my chest have come back( well maybe not all but some) and because of this it's making me think that I have a bad heart again as well. I know about 5 months ago I got EKG bloodwork and chest X-ray after my first panic attack and about 2 months after that I got 24 hour holter monitor and an echo and all of those test came back normal. That gave me proof that my heart was normal in every was possible right? But the anxiety still kept coming and I couldn't accept that it was anxiety. Then something hit me. I'm not sure what but for a few weeks I had little to no anxiety which allowed me to get my life back but now the anxiety kept it's way back into my life and is hitting hard like before. I'm trying my coping techniques and they help a bit at the moment but then the anxiety comes back. I'm getting less of an urge to work out and run because when I start I don't feel right and I stop. I'm trying but it's hard. And worst of all my catostrophic thoughts have come back thinking that I am unhealthy and that my heart is failing again and what not. I keep reminding myself of my tests but they were a few months ago and feel that they don't matter because of how long it's been. And all of this at the age of 17. Guys you have to believe me I'm trying but it's hard. My tests are my strongest defense but because of how long it's been I just don't see that as a valid source right now. Can things really change in in about a 3 month period? Idk my mind wanders so much I just really need some advice please.. Thank you for reading.

Where better to get things off your mind than here? :)

Unless you have some big risk factor for heart problems, I would think tests a few months ago should still be pretty good reassurance that you're okay.

Best wishes

Plus I was even at the doctor a few weeks ago for a check up and we were talking about how I was doing and saying how it was nothing inside that made me feel like this so I just don't know guys I'm between a rock and a hard place here

Thank you so much SC for that I love when you post on my forums:) I know I had my experience with feeling no anxiety but it's just the thing that baffles me is that I have absolutely no idea how or why my anxiety stuff just shut off after that night I saw start trek with my friends! I have been working to overcome but after that night it all just shut off and I have no idea whether it's something I did or what. And perhaps your right it's just when I get into reay bad states i fe that there is no hope for me and that my time has come and this early. like today for example I don't know why but I was watching a couple of videos about people's near death experiences( I know that was a bad move on my part and apologize) and what happened to them. Then all of a sudden my breathing got short and felt like I was going to suffocate and my hands were sweating like crazy and feet and I was thinking to myself is this it? But in actuality it was most likely my mind replaying in a sense of what I saw and made me panic like that and I was scared ill admit but I got through it but the after effects were not fun mentally that is. Ill try what you recommended but what I do feel that I need right now is support and alot of encouragement because when I read your post It made me feel good and I had a slight change in my mindset there and I feel that will become a good part of the healing process. Although I do have a predicament though. I have a therapy session this Friday and it's been about a month since I have seen her and really want to talk about what's been going on but that Friday is also the parade for the Blackhawks in Chicago and I would like to go to that but I REALLLY want to go to my therapy. I was talking with my mom and she said that basically said( not directly but implied) I can skip again because this is more important which give me the feeling that she doesn't even care about me going to therapy anymore and thinks I'm cured. But I haven't told them about how I was feeling because I just get the vibe that they don't want to hear about it because when I was driving home with my dad one night I mentioned about how my anxiety has given me some trouble and he didn't say a word and changed the subject. So I'm kind of at a loss here:/

Thanks SC I love your replies so much! And for the appointment that's the thing I don't know my schedule for appointments after this coming one so I need to go to find that out and I really want to talk to her about how I have been feeling because aside from you guys she is the only other person that I can actually talk to about my health anxiety issues and what not because I feel my parents don't care much. And that makes me feel good.

Going back to how I physically feel. It's soo tricky for me because it's a bad habit of mine to analyze everything no exaggeration even if it doesn't have to do with my physical self. Soo adding with my hypochondriasis it's really bad for me because well lemme give you an example here. So while I was typing this I felt some sudden lower back pain like the sharp few second lasting kind and I thought to myself it's my kidneys and therefore links to my heart and therefore I will die. That's how I think sometimes or if I don't feel right like if I get a weird feeling in my chest I think it's my heart I'm gonna go and I get scared and the true anxiety kicks in. It's a vicious cycle for me wondering if my symptoms cause my anxiety or anxiety cause my symptoms and even with all of the testing I got I still can't believe because honestly I think " that was like 3 months ago those results aren't valid now" and I think that things can change sooo easily. I don't know SC I'm a mess.

CBT is very effective in battling the scary what-if thoughts of health anxiety.

Did I ever recommend the CBT based health anxiety self-help books to you?

If not, and if you would like to get a jump on working a good program while you look for additional help...let me know and I will post the book links for you.:)

I am sorry that you had a rough day...but you held it together and did what you needed to do to ensure that it did not become a full-blown spiraling attack...that is progress!! Great job.:)

S.C.

Don't feel bad for there are times we are up× we are down thats anxiety for you&we would like to shake it 100% I made the statement to the psyc sometimes I wonder will I have this the rest of my life&she shook her head yes&said but there are meds that can help control it&I refuse to give into that,I already have to take thyroid meds for the rest of my life I refuse to add anti-anxiety meds. Some way& some how we will beat anxiety&what a great win that will be.

These are just two of the books that I often recommend for those of us who suffer health worries and anxiety.

http://www.amazon.com/Overcoming-Health-Anxiety-David-Veale/dp/1845298241

http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/9684360-overcoming-health-anxiety

Even if you have no intention of buying them...I just want you to click the links and have a look at them.  I want you to see that there were actually people who had to write these books.  Why?  Because there are many, many people like you and me who have (had) this issue!

You are not going to die...you are not sick...you have a fairly common anxiety issue that happens to focus on being sick and dying.

There is a world of difference though!  I know that it is still scary...that you still believe that you are not okay...but I am telling you that you are indeed fine...just dealing with extreme fears.

The fact that these books exist, further enforces what I am saying to you.:)

Try to trust in this for now.  Keep working on your issues.  It will get better...I am proof.

S.C.

 

Thanks Larry good thing is I didn't wake up to a panic attack today and I pray that today will be better. My parents are filling up the medicine my doctor recommended and I hope that will help me a little more

I fe weak and I have body aches and no appetite now and still get the flutters and what not when I move around and this just isn't right to me

I am taking your offer here and am going to read up on that book. I know it won't be a miracle cure but I want to see what it has to offer here.

I also just had a sudden onset of sharp pain in my lower abdomen and back on my right side. It went away but it was really strange and didnt feel comfortable.

Yeah it's a big issue here. And I do get alot of pains around body and it's annoying but I get through it. And unfortunately that book by Paul David wasn't at and boom store or library so I will have to get it online I guess.