My Truth...

Hi,

I send a sincere hope for if not a resolution, a step in the right direction to the members of this forum who deal with the disease of anxiety and panic disorders.

I wrote a post earlier and then deleted it, it just felt like I was rehashing the same stuff - which I might also do here - but try to get
more at my truth, my heart, and by being more honest with myself about who I am, have a more content life.

I know this is a anxiety and panic disorder forum, with people suffering with many issues, I too suffer from anxiety issues which bleed into many things I do, and which to a large part has led me to
where I now am , in one word: struggling on a number of levels.

I'm at a point now where I know what the story is. Here is the deal:
I hate the pushing, bs,disingenuous aspects of sales. I am a middle
aged guy who hasn't really worked full-time in sales in a while and
the thought of soliciting nauseated me.

I had plenty of time and money to live on and did nothing. Now as I look on my no longer youthful face I realize I do not want to leave my life with regrets- cause it will only get worse. A year ago I was not really worried about the future, money, writing letters to online strangers ( hi s.c).

I hurt or maybe killed whatever career I had going by not working so long, in this competitive environment you can not do that, especially at
my age. Never looked my age , but I see the stress I feel starting to show and do not have much time left as work opportunities.

The truths the part of me for pushing after business over parts of the past 4 decades is about done. I should be a manager or something but am not in a position obviously, having not been steady anywhere
for awhile.

You know how some people think when they see a salesperson that they can never do that, or wouldn't put up with all the crap that goes with it, the lying, disrespect of ones time,etc... That's the way I feel
now. I didn't really have to put up with it before cause most of my
pay was indurance generated, didn't really have to sell.

Don't want to have to be "on" all the time. I didn't even see the older
woman therapist friendly on any level when I met with her, in fact she
seemed like she had a stick up her butt.

Yes, I have had anxiety, trouble sleeping all my life, but this is making it much worse and until recently had almost no energy to play with my kids. For me to take care of my family, it's viable for me to stay in business/ sales but how do I get a interview with the the time I didn't work? I am quite competent though. If anyone has similar experience or advice, I would appreciate it. I would be fine in the right situation.

Post Edited (ghosst8) : 7/10/2013 4:11:54 PM (GMT-6)

Hi Ghosst,

I have my hands a bit full here at the moment...I will get back to you either here or in mail...

Know that I am cheering you on though. You are fully invested in trying to get back on track...and I have every confindence that it will all work out in your favor given a little more time.

S.C.

Hi,

Thank you BeRock, Scaredy Cat, lgm for responding to my post.

I am reaching out to someone who knows me and may be in a position to help me. I should know if anything comes of it soon.

lgm, never thought of that one - paying a headhunter. Not in the position to do that now, money is tight. Might not matter anyways,
they are paid by big companies to put best candidate out there.
Honestly, I am very capable- but if I could come up with something
better than I have to cover up my period of inactivity I will - but I
have not been able to - so since thats ( the resume) the bottom line,
I get nowhere.

Was just watching something on YouTube about a entertainer, who is
really has had a career. His career has had different dimensions.
He is proud, and into what he does.

The security of regular money, by working or unemployment benefits
was enough for me - now that I don't have it so easy, I want to be true to myself, but have a family to support.

I am a sensitive soul, so never took a definitive direction with my life.
But, after all this time, I'm fed up, and would like to take a different
direction.

That's a good thought, something besides tired old, draining sales-
any ideas? Thanks

Hi BeRock,

Thank you for your response.

When I was working full -time I made a good salary , close to
6 figures. I was at this particular company a pretty long time.

I have heard this job suggested to me before, and I appreciate
your help, but as much as sales is played out for me over parts
of 4 decades, I feel I'm beter suited for that. It also gives me
a opportunity to make a much better income for my family.

I am working now, but am only making a fraction of what I made.
I am appreciative of the income, without it I even have worse
finances. It is something for the time being.


The following thoughts I had since my last response.

This is my truth and why I am where I am at now.

When you are scared of life and take no few risks you are not
inclined to follow a dream, take chances. You fall into whatever.
You see avoidance, apathy, and being comfortable I find are all
related. To be competitive in the business world you have to be
hungry, never let your guard down and definitely have to go for
it, not be afraid.

I had a job where I could get away with the above, not really
challenge myself, take risks, grow and made a pretty good living.
It didn't seem to matter that I was not really doing much for the
customer, or growing professionally ( I was professional, but
in a indifferent industry, needed to bring that something extra
tt compete, and when I needed to do that or move on- which
I should have done, I did nothing).

You know that commercial for optimum where the woman who
just moved is having to call everyone and tell her name and address, the crazy repetition of it, and the voiceover says "moving
is hard,optimum is easy", or something like that. That the way I
feel about sales. I'm pretty good at it, but dealing with the inherent defensive attitude gets old, and since I can't make a good
living that I described above that I did without really doing sales
( I may not have been self-actualized, but for what I made , boy
did I have it easy for awhile!)

So, I want to make similiar money, but the bottom line is I dislike
all the crap that comes with it. I did have a second job in which I
did pure sales, in a low pressure environment.

Bottom line, the shelf life for me in doing this is vey thin. I can
see myself doing this for a good salary.

I have a college degree but no experience doing anything else.

I would be interested in psychology, but that would involve a few
years to get a doctorate, need to make money now, and even
if I obtained this degree, it's no guarantee of anything- it's still
like being in business for yourself.

Other ideas: social work ( see above- need money now), sports
writer(pipe dream).

I read something regarding being in sales after a certain age is
not a career, don't know if I agree with.

It's just that your only as good as your last month, constantly
worrying, and you always have to be smiling- just a drag.
A couple bad months and bye. - bye.

Here is to everyone having a good weekend and finding solutions to
whatever troubles them.

Post Edited (ghosst8) : 7/12/2013 3:20:07 PM (GMT-6)

You could do the real estate with no trouble, but if I had your talent and background I would take it a step further, I always wondered why the sales people didn't have a loan company working with them someone who was ready to push the sale thru, one of the things that always makes my brain wilt is all the paper work and getting the loan approval, then closing. I think someone who could think out of the box could take a client in, and when they had decided on the house handle everything with one stop, and close the deal.
Larry