Welcome to HealingWell Butterfly Bear!I am so glad you reached out and joined us here in the forum. I am sorry to read of your difficulties with sleeping and let me see if I can help you out a bit.
Sometimes panic comes at night because we are settling down for the day. During the day we keep ourselves busy with plenty of things to do. The mind becomes more active at night with "scary" thoughts about things we've done, seen, heard, experienced etc. We also have the time to feel and understand the emotions that run parallel with the experience causing panic. Sometimes panic results from emotions throughout the day that weren't expressed at the time that would've been more appropriate. Not taking care of it then leaves room to panic about what might happen as a result. The old "What if?" thinking.
There are many reason for the bedtime panic. Listen to your reasons. Be aware of what you're thinking and feeling next time the night time panic rears it's ugly head. Notice how the panic takes shape. This has worked to stop an attack at one time or another for me.
I had a night of little sleep and was still awake at 5:30 AM this morning. A mantra that usually works for me is, " My bed is for rest, NOT for worry" - last night my mind was just jumping all over the place so I will nap this afternoon if I start dragging bottom.
BB, with a full blown panic attack can you still use colored Crayola pencils on a detailed Disney coloring book? I know that worked for you in the past; in fact you even had me coloring but alas, I am still no Pablo Picasso.
I am glad to know you are seeing your PCP today. Let us know what we can do to help. I have gotten so much help here and still continue to especially with the biggest challenge in my life staring me in the face daily.
If it is helpful to you, pray, meditate and go to your church as I know you to be strong in your faith.
Share as much or as little with our members and know them to be kind and caring.
I wish you peace,
Kitt