will I ever

Kortnie you will have to force yourself to put your toe in the water of the uncomfortable pool, a little
at a time, walk directly toward your worst fears, your subconcious mind is holding you hostage, your
couch is a cage where you are traped in a world of what if's and maybe's. You do not have to challenge the world all at once, just take baby steps, push the envelop of uncomfortableness a little at a time, I think you said your not taking meds, thats your choice, but rethink the options, if you
cary them with you, you have the option of pushing into your fears a little at a time if you get overwhelmed you can take your anxiety med. Either way your recovery requires you to be willing to
allow yourself to be uncomfortable, PAD can make you misserable but it can't kill you and you can kill it. No pain no gain! You can do it! I Love You and Pray for You!
Larry ***

Try not to think about fixing your "life." You've piled up this whole huge list that is really overwhelming.

Pick one thing. Just one little thing, and start those baby steps!

Which one do you most want to improve? Where you're sleeping? Issues with your boyfriend? Not going out? Your weight?

Pick just one to start with. (I would pick the weight - that sounds pretty thin, friend.)

Whatever it is, like Larry says, stick your toe into the uncomfortable area.

Prepare yourself a balanced meal, in balanced proportions, and resolve to eat it whether you're hungry or not. Just open your mouth, put the food in, chew, swallow, repeat.

Or, focusing on the sleeping arrangement - have you set yourself up a "camp" on the couch? When I'm really depressed, (like now), I tend to set up little "nests" I go to. (very unhealthy) Anyway, if so, your first step is getting rid of that camp. Put your spare blankets back in the closet. Put your pillow back on the bed where it belongs, etc. You can do each little thing one at a time through the day. When time for bed comes, just try to MAKE yourself go lay in that bed. Resolve to lay there for an hour before you get up. Maybe you'll make two hours the next night, etc.

Hang in there! You're going to make it through this, life changes, situations change, moods change - you're not stuck in this forever, even if sometimes it seems like you are!

Hugs, hugs, hugs!

Kortnie,

Don't try to beat all your problems over night as right now you are overwhelmed.

Choose one thing you want to work on today and like Larry said, stick your toe in the water and eventually you will have your foot in the water.

Do not worry about going backwards a day as you will just pick yourself up and start moving forward again.

I promise you I am the queen at this and after 31 years I have many more good days than bad.

Love,

Kitt

Hey Kid, I can already tell a big difference in you, "You are no problem" Peace

Larry ***

You my Dear are going to fly over the Ranbow. Peace

Larry ***