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Posted 7/19/2013 11:51 PM (GMT 0)
I have posted before that I hate taking meds. Frightened by what will happen to me if I take them, drug interactions, ect. Well my sister is here visiting with her children and let's just say anxiety has been off and on for 3 days now. My doc has me on 5mg Valium every 4 hours as needed. I really try not to take them and when I need to I actually break them in half for fear of feeling loopy or tired. Again, hate taking pills. I just took a 5mg and now feel guilty. I started to go into a panic with her to very loud, out of control kids and her constant screaming at them. I feel like I should have rode it out or just taken a half dose. I'm feeling relaxed but not if that makes sense. Is 5mg a high dose and will half that work for me next time? Just sucks that I can't relax because I'm afraid I took to much. Will it harm me in anyway? Sorry about all the babble, just afraid of pills that are known to be addictive. Any advice will help and I'm sure be comforting.
Posted 7/20/2013 1:40 AM (GMT 0)
You should not feel guilty for having to take your medication to deal with that kind of stress. Screaming, out of control, "bratty" kids will do that to a person like us, especially if we're not used to all the commotion.

From what I understand, because I've never taken valium before, is that doctors usually prescribe anywhere from 2 - 10 mgs up to 4 times a day for anxiety. So I wouldn't be afraid or anxious about the dose you took. After all, it IS prescribed by your doctor, and this is the dose he/she feels will work best for you.

I get the same way around my niece's kids. It's just too much sometimes!
Posted 7/20/2013 2:46 AM (GMT 0)
Think of your meds as a tool, you use them as needed, over time you will feel strong enough to
allow yourself to test the water of uncomfortableness, "remember baby steps", as time go's by and
conditions allow you can extend the period of uncomfortableness because you know you can end the
anguish any time you want to. Then there will come a day when you just tough a panic attack out and see it to the end, thats the day you no longer take baby steps your going to run like the Wind!
Peace

Larry ***

Post Edited (lgm1942) : 7/19/2013 11:10:36 PM (GMT-6)

Posted 7/20/2013 5:00 AM (GMT 0)
Please try not to feel guilty!

Like the others said, you used a tool for its intended purpose.

Consider this - Suppose a diabetic person had dinner that was prepared by a friend. They underestimated the amount of carbohydrates in the meal and now their sugar is sky high. Should they feel guilty for taking their insulin?

Same thing - You are involved in a situation that's somewhat out of your control and it has caused too much stimulation, leading to anxiety running high. Why should you feel bad for using your valium?

Now, if you were chilling out, perfectly fine and decided to take a valium because you wondered if getting high would be fun, THAT would be a problem.

I think you did the right thing!

Loud kids and screaming adults are both stressors that I almost cannot physically handle. My brother's grandson is a good example. He's three and he's a handful and a half. My brother has a very strong, deep voice and when he starts using his "discipline" voice it makes me nuts. I typically have to go outside - sometimes for an hour or more - when I visit there.

The thing is, we only get so much time with our family. It's much better to find a way to enjoy it the best you can than to avoid them when you have the chance to see them. You did that.

Like Larry said, you'll work through this one step at a time, and one day you won't need to take your valium to handle these situations. Right now, you do. Do what you need to do and keep moving forward.

You're in a doctor's care. It's not like you bought the valium on the street. ;P If a problem arises from the medicine, there will be help available. However, I think that's pretty unlikely.

Hugs!
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