SoulNHealing,I am sorry to read of your continuous health anxiety problems and as I think I mentioned yesterday I am concerned about you and wish you would look at talking to your Dr. about a possible inpatient admission.
The ability to handle stress, physical or emotional, is a cornerstone to human survival. You are having an extremely tough time right now and it feels to me like you would benefit from some down time away from all of your outside stressors.
Gentle Hugs,
Kitt