Posted 7/23/2013 3:48 AM (GMT 0)
First let me start by saying this will be a deep poem what ppl with PAD go through&Iam being bold to live this on my own time,so please if just the thought of anxiety scare you. I beg of you not to read this and I pray one day soon we will overcome,was on FB and saw something that cut at my soul I like alot of pages that inspire ppl&most of all me. It was a post that said live your best life yet be bold not brave,being brave brings fear in fear brings to much over thinking(true) make a bucket list&go down that list&live that list out. You only get one life& no one gets out alive,so live in the name and make this a life so great that your mark will forever stay make it a good one.
This takes me to the man that wanted to set the worlds record for speed,he knew the risk but I guess this was on his list I can't help but to think in the last mins did he desire to restart time,are had he already made peace with life just like the many men&women who fight to keep us safe. When the sign the line they're saying they're ready to give their life for their country rights, if we all could be so brave&bold with peace. And not worry with the what ifs&the unknown like with truth we don't need to know about that at all,yesterday is gone&today is here the next just wait for it but the now live in it&enjoy the best way you/I can.
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We live with extra thoughts that can sometime eat away at us like a unknown sickness,wondering where is the healing so we run around in circles with fear of the unknown with anger for control.
A small palp in heart can bring a scare what was that&why heart why are you trying to run from me,I can't feel my legs I can't breath all along every word still speaks life but you mind is no where near its on fear&anger it runs on pain&the unknown thoughts of what us next.
Life I love you so much I want you to stay this lump in my throat has my head in a spin,legs like jelly heart raceing mind in a world when&bodt in shock whats going on and why want this stop. Stop running mee&my life stop holding my mind anxiety&stop taking from me,nothing here for you hard are you to run me&me let you. Why do I run from you when Iam you&you are me a part of me broken&confuse but some kind of way in all of my pain and unwanted feelings you got in,luje a unwanted guest in my mind takeing what lil I had left anxiety go away,you and your ups and downs&happy&sad,with bubble guts&fog brain and unknown pain and tiredness in the mind. Anxiety you must go there is nothing more for you to take and you are not welcome,my life my mind my being&my will not easy to remove you. To many years of you but I know that I want you gone and run I don't desire to know anymore,only way for one to fix a problem is to look at the problem/problems&face them to overcome them.