Loud

So I had go to sleep a lil more early then normal&thats because my head&my tooth wsd hurtting,now because the woman that I stay with came in the housr after 12am being loud Iam up. And now she in there sleep& Iam not able to get back to sleep mind roaming&I find her rude and not thoughtful,it's already hard to get to sleep and Iam tired she is always loud&thats not right,now Iam up with anxiety trying to make my vistril last. Because I have to take refill to CVS on monday&I can't wait untik friday get here,I took off fri&sat and Iam just going to take some time to treat myself&relax&try to have fun I need some me time to get away.

Iam just on overload I know Iam stressing&that aint no good at all&I can't end up back in somebody hospital, I sometime wish I didn't care so much for ppl because my heart becomes heavy for them&my soul cry out. New a 18 year old girl was killed by a 20 something year old girl. They where fighting over a guy and it turn wrong&the 18 year old lost her life over foolishness,I don't understand foolishness&this was 30min from where I live. See thats why I don't deal with liars&why I cut them off,if I can tell they are lieing the man has to keep it moving because I refuse to lose my life over a worthless guy. The story is just sad&sticks out loud in my head,no one should be that evil when it comes to the care of anothers life.

I just want to get better for it's stories like this that makes one take another look at how short life is again,and her last post was on thursday¬ knowing she would be gone fri. Are did she feel something whatever the case. I hope that her mom will be able to get justice for her.

Back to I hope things better real soon for the better&greater good&I get all that I need&more. I must have my better&my good things& everything more. But I also think I will have to have my heart check good something is not right when heart skips&fighting to breath,I hate this scary it's and they said a few months ago norhings wrong. But deep down I know something aint right,hate to speak that but,my heart is causeing me problems,that I have been staying hush about because I wish for nothing to be wrong.