Had a public breakdown today...

I'm not even sure I'm embarrassed.

I was making my rounds, gathering news, when my weekly stop routine took an odd turn. I showed up at the courthouse, which usually involves going through piles and piles of folders.

Someone there had already done it for me. I was in shock, just absolute shock.

She told me I hadn't seemed okay lately, so she wanted to help me out. I told her that yeah, I hadn't been well. I didn't tell her about the anxiety/depression, just the random infections and stuff. She started talking to me about God and told me that she'd do anything in her power to help me until I felt well again.

It was SO weird. This is someone I interact with pretty much purely on a professional basis.

Then she said, to someone behind me whom I hadn't realized was there, "Hey, what are you doing?"

He said, "Praying for our sister." and took my hand. It was this woman's preacher.

I ended up hugging and crying with them. I think they know there's more going on than infections. But, even though I'm pretty sure I should be embarrassed, I'm not. I needed that. And I needed that THEN.

I had been sitting in the car thinking, "I just don't think I can go on."

This love and prayer from people I barely know got me through the rest of the day.

It wasn't too long until I was back in my fog, wandering around confused and I still don't have my day's work done, but I'm soooo thankful for that moment.

Angles Unaware!

Larry ***

Best Wishes! HB

BeRock for what nothing to be shame of Christian ppl cry out&pray anywhere this is a true person,who isn't shame of God at all I said I need to get back to how I use to pray. I use to get on one knee&pray at work if I forgot to pray in the morning,because I may have been rushing are when I use to get on my belly&face down on the floor to pray. When you already down how can the devil knock one down,this is call blocking the devil so have no shame ever&keep in mind that those who weap in God shall renew their strength. Weaping may go on for a min but joy is soon to follow and this what we go through is just a test,and when rain come dance in the rain witg no care of who maybe watching. Let me share a story with you about my grandmother news said storm was on the way,and to take cover&me and my mom&brother all got in the tub&we could've made room for her but she said no she took her pilliow and said she would lay by the tub she got on her back and started to pray/weap out to God a fearless woman you couldn't tell her God wasn't real her prayers&her speaking of God made it clear He is. And I was about 10 I think could've been younger and that will never move from my soul,so when I pray I ask her and my uncle to join hands with me from Heaven. Because where two are more join together whatever they bind on earth,shall be bind in Heaven meaning God will take it&say move ha what a Great God.